Monday, 19 September 2011
01:51:15 AM (GMT)
God never promised that life would be fair or easy. In fact he tells us that to
follow him in this life will bring difficulty and hardship.
I don't feel particularly hopeful to read that message. I've been hitting rock
bottom repeatedly for a pretty long time now. Some days my faith is the size of a
mustard seed, sometimes a lot smaller. Tonight I thought I had a chance to share my
hard-earned life experience with someone I care about. I should have seen it coming.
I give this well thought out, humble, honest answer and it turns out I, of course,
misunderstood her question. So here I am gone from hopeful getting to share my
experience, confident in my answer, to feeling like a complete screw up.
I ain't feeling very hopeful. I'm not going to ramble about how I know things will
turn out nicely, because honestly I can't see around this problem that's staring me
in the face.
Right now life sucks and I wish I could go home.