Wednesday, 27 October 2010
10:44:18 PM (GMT)
seriously, i just felt like writing.
plus, now i have one hundred entries, so yes.
what the fuck?
jonathan, man, i still find you extremely intriguing.
it's been, five days since i've seen you, but somehow, i still look for you in
which is dumb because it's impossible.
but i don't want to lose your memory, so i force you to stay in my mind.
i repeat all the things i heard you say, just so i can remember your voice.
really, no one measures up.
i don't give a crap about anyone i used to like.
now tell me, who was ever able to do that?
realize, you have placed a grand responsibility upon yourself,
because i look up to you and only you now.
i don't even know what you're doing these days in california.
probably something better than what i'm doing.
and sometimes, i like to listen to the radio thinking you're hearing the same song.
and sometimes, i like to wonder if maybe you're obsessed with me too, or if you don't
even remember my name.
it's okay though, maybe by december, i'll talk to you again.
and i feel stupid, but on the other hand, no one else has gotten me to believe in