Thursday, 17 June 2010
09:48:52 PM (GMT)
well im usually happy and peppy and stuff but today im not feelin it... not a drop.
my dad has been out of worl for a year and my mom works 6 days a week. all they do is
fight ann yell and swear and fight some more... it hurts and everytime i talk to them
about it.... my mom tells me to shut the fuck up and get the fuck away from her, and
my dad just rolls his eyes.....
my brother fights me... literally... like he tries to beat me up and yells at me
everytime i say something....
my friends are all gone off to camp or avoiding me and my crush hasnt txt back all
i dont know whats going on and i feel like im losing control.... last night my mom
decided she didnt want to come to my basketball games anymore and i feel alone and
lost and confused and this is me just trying to figurew things out... i dont know
what im doin but im done with the act..im done acting happy when im falling apart, im
done putting up a show so no one noes, im done with the act, im tired of putting on a
smile and a laugh and havin people think my life is okay... if i hurt people along
thee way im sorry but i cant do it anymore... i just cant....
i dont care...........,