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in my depressionCategory: (general)
Thursday, 31 July 2008
12:19:44 AM (GMT)
too many times a day do i wish things would end for me
too many times a day do i wish the world around me would end 
im tired of holding all my emotions in because i dont want anyone to 
feel sorry for me, i dont want anyone to cry when i cry, or feel what i cry
but sometimes i just want someone to ask why i cry
i always turn them away but as long as i know they care right?
sometimes i just want a hug but the pittifull thing i call a pride holds me back
but then every now and then theres that one perso who will be smart enough to say

"well then can i have a hug?"

and i never turn that person away never.
but that person never comes 
i help everyone
but everyone leaves me here 
in the darkness to suffer 

i wont kill myself 
because i know others need me
i wont wish my slef dead 
because i know the person who did it wont live it down

instead i wish myself alive
but what good is living if all it causes 
is torture for me?

i cant stop helping people
even when i know they wont help me

i cant stop caring 
even though the obvipus;ly dont care

i cant stop holding in feelings while people are with me
eve though theyd gladley cry on my shoulder and give me their pain

it hurts to much to keep ti all
it hurts to much to grow
and gain knowledge 
it hurts to much 

to live

but i wish to remian
i wish to see how my life turns out

i wish to see myself grow

what i do not wish to see is this continueing

and when that one glimmer of hope comes
that one person who says you can trust me 
comes along

they leave or break the trust the so
wilingly promised me

what do i have to loo forward to in a world that has only
fake,untrustworthy,and uncaring people?

6viper6king6 says:   31 July 2008   183797  
ur rite the would has uncaring and untrust worthy ppl and i feel the
same way V.V
‹XxXThe_RavenXxX› says :   31 July 2008   889133  
well im glad someone is on my side


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