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Bittersweet Serenity. OneshotCategory: OCs
Tuesday, 17 July 2012
08:50:58 AM (GMT)
I know that I'm meant to be sleeping now... I know that it's three in the morning,
and I know that I have work, and that I'll have to get up in three hours anyway, but
I can't stop thinking.  I can't switch my mind off and just sleep.  I can't stop
thinking about him.  And I know precisely how clicheed that is.  And he's back now,
so, in theory I should have stopped worrying, because now I know that he's safe, and
I've got Val, so my mind should be made up.  But, the thing is...  I missed him.
I missed him laughing at me every time I fell over, and I missed him helping me up. 
When I'd cut myself, and he'd put a plaster on.  Kiss my hand and tell me it was
fixed.  Now he's back, he's so secretive.  It's like we weren't ever friends.
I'm certain that I love Val, but before he left, I loved Salem.  And can that ever
really disappear?
If I told anyone, I don't think they'd believe how utterly confused I am.  Because I
have Val.  And he's, well... perfect.  I'm positive that I can't deserve him.  And
Salem.  Well, I can't deserve him, either...
He means more than anyone has ever meant to me before, except Father, of course.  But
we were best friends, and I honestly can't think of a word that describes us.
I hate these words, but it's not fair.
I know that it's me being selfish, but I'm in love with Val, and he's probably one of
the best people I've ever met, and yet, I can't seem to forget about Salem, and
everything we had...  I know that I should just be happy for what I have, but I can't
help but wondering whether Salem misses me as much as I do him, and when I think
about it I find an answer.  And I wish I hadn't.

Well, I'm writing it in this diary, because I haven't touched it in years.  And I
know that no one will ever see it, and I pray to whatever I believe in that I can
hide this far better than I think I can.

‹mÿlö xÿlötö› says:   17 July 2012   971094  
‹defineMANIAC› says:   17 July 2012   738950  
Semi-vent (': 
‹mÿlö xÿlötö› says:   17 July 2012   894118  
I can tell c': 
‹defineMANIAC› says:   17 July 2012   848727  
That obvious? 
‹mÿlö xÿlötö› says:   17 July 2012   860610  
You always write Kari when you're in a bad mood :') 
‹defineMANIAC› says:   17 July 2012   145927  
She has similar moods, so I can write her when I feel crap 
‹mÿlö xÿlötö› says:   17 July 2012   698862  
‹defineMANIAC› says:   17 July 2012   485076  
I just proved your point.... -.- 
‹mÿlö xÿlötö› says:   17 July 2012   196289  
For once! :P 
‹defineMANIAC› says:   17 July 2012   893797  
Hm.  I still think Kari's my favourite OC... 
‹mÿlö xÿlötö› says:   17 July 2012   787118  
‹defineMANIAC› says:   17 July 2012   835606  
Or maybe Erin.  She's growing on me, since all this development... 
‹mÿlö xÿlötö› says:   17 July 2012   740742  
Tbh I love everyone x) 
‹defineMANIAC› says:   17 July 2012   548848  
Yeah, true...  And Aiden, ofc 
‹mÿlö xÿlötö› says:   17 July 2012   646790  
Well, he's you, so I'd hope so :P 
‹defineMANIAC› says:   17 July 2012   180304  
I prefer him :P 
‹mÿlö xÿlötö› says:   17 July 2012   403891  
I'd say I prefer Salem, but... He's A Tramp xD 
‹defineMANIAC› says:   17 July 2012   626023  
That he is, sorry Aaron 
‹mÿlö xÿlötö› says:   17 July 2012   604278  
Poor boy, his soulmate's a compulsive flirt and heartbreaker :P 
‹defineMANIAC› says:   17 July 2012   841103  
Well, Salem's soulmate's just a fail at life. 
‹mÿlö xÿlötö› says:   17 July 2012   120070  
And yet somehow, they manage a relationship...! 
‹defineMANIAC› says:   17 July 2012   943776  
To be fair, they all seem to manage, and I don't really know how!
Skommy, Flobyn, Vari... 
‹mÿlö xÿlötö› says:   17 July 2012   467290  
Vari, I understand :P
How dafuq did Skommy happen?! 
Flobyn, because of cookies and Lynette xD 
‹defineMANIAC› says:   17 July 2012   749738  
Actually, yeah, that makes sense...
Not. A. Clue.
And Robyn's hospital trip... 
‹mÿlö xÿlötö› says:   17 July 2012   232620  
Because Val's adorable xD
It's a mindfuck, I say...
What a great relationship starter...! 
‹defineMANIAC› says:   17 July 2012   920326  
We should carry on our original rp....  That was so much drama...
Even worse than Vari...! 
‹mÿlö xÿlötö› says:   17 July 2012   948278  
Oh yeah!
The Ginger and the Git xD
"So, how did you meet?"
"Er...I got a minor concussion..." 
‹defineMANIAC› says:   17 July 2012   692622  
Mrs Potts and Stableboy #43....
They fail so much...
"Oh, I nearly fell into a stomach...  Nice to meet you ^^" 
‹mÿlö xÿlötö› says:   17 July 2012   832345  
Oh Lordy xD OTP!
But it's so funny!
Much love xD 
‹defineMANIAC› says:   17 July 2012   270725  
And dat library Q AQ
Yeah xD
No wonder Kari and Robyn are friends! 
‹mÿlö xÿlötö› says:   17 July 2012   957432  
So epic ;w;
Skye punching the shit out of Tommy, what a happy life xD
They both fail! xD 
‹defineMANIAC› says:   17 July 2012   392397  
And them IN the library!  I was dying of cute then....
He doesn't mind :3  Thick-skinned doesn't cover it!
And Robyn makes Ramin cookies... 
‹mÿlö xÿlötö› says:   17 July 2012   173447  
So. Adorable!
He likes being her punchbag xD
Exactly xD I want some ;w; 
‹defineMANIAC› says:   17 July 2012   699718  
And the lake!!!  She went all RAEGE when Val got stuck!
N'aw, young love :P
Me toooo... Make me Ramin cookies? 
‹mÿlö xÿlötö› says:   17 July 2012   202262  
And he was all OuO xD
Of the strangest, most retarded kind xD
I'd probably fail...
‹defineMANIAC› says:   17 July 2012   411833  
And Salem was all O.O WTF
The best kind!
‹mÿlö xÿlötö› says:   17 July 2012   191242  
And Aiden was all o.e
Of the most ginger kind ;D
‹defineMANIAC› says:   17 July 2012   739684  
And Kari was all O.O WTF
Win xD
BD "It's the only place you're safe" BD BD BD 
‹mÿlö xÿlötö› says:   17 July 2012   417920  
Then she was all D8 RAAAAAEG xD
So much of it xDD Liz would be like THE MOST COOL KID EVER
".../flees D; D;" 
‹defineMANIAC› says:   17 July 2012   527389  
Heheh... "GIVE ME VAL BACK!!!"
"Cause your Daddy's an assassin... Yes he is!"
‹mÿlö xÿlötö› says:   17 July 2012   215366  
" know I can get out myself, right? ^^;" xDDD
"Yeah...Daddy's a weirdo, isn't he, Liz? >.>"
Flynt is such a perv XDD Ilovehim 
‹defineMANIAC› says:   17 July 2012   627071  
"......Oh... ^////^ I knew that...."
"Yesh he ish!" *huggle*
‹mÿlö xÿlötö› says:   17 July 2012   405844  
"It's alright ^^"
"/picks her up/ o.O Er...bedtime..."
I'm doing an OC ref diary :D full of crap yaaaay 
‹defineMANIAC› says:   17 July 2012   316402  
N'aww, poor Tommy xD
A whut? 
‹mÿlö xÿlötö› says:   17 July 2012   490243  
/huggle/ ^^
Poor Liz xDD
You'll see laters :3 It's like a mishmash (FTW) of things they'd each
like, or people who look like them etc 
‹defineMANIAC› says:   17 July 2012   620935  
/melts xD
I pity the child!
‹mÿlö xÿlötö› says:   17 July 2012   218694  
"Oh my... OuO"
Same xD
Pfft :P 
‹defineMANIAC› says:   17 July 2012   610859  
‹mÿlö xÿlötö› says:   17 July 2012   703167  
Val just casually watching her melt into a puddle of squee xD 
‹defineMANIAC› says:   17 July 2012   658829  
Not even joking, that would be hilarious xDDDD 
‹mÿlö xÿlötö› says:   17 July 2012   964025  
He already does it xDD
"Er...girlfriend is squealing uncontrollably...D;" 
‹defineMANIAC› says:   17 July 2012   207180  
This is true... xD
He just laughs and hugs her! 
‹mÿlö xÿlötö› says:   17 July 2012   740075  
WTF else could he do? xDDDD 
‹defineMANIAC› says :   17 July 2012   443612  
Good point xD 


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