Tuesday, 26 July 2011
01:23:24 AM (GMT)
This rant is probably mostly the effects of my random emotional instability today
mixed eight he depressing music playing, but I'm trying to get all my thoughts
organized so just bear with me.
First of all, I'm getting very annoyed with my inability to say or write anything
that comes out the way I want it to. Whenever I try to joke, I offend someone, and
when I try to be serious, there's always someone who points out something wrong with
Secondly, I am an awkward person who has no real self esteem so ai usually get left
out of conversations because I'm too bust overthinking what I'm going to say (see the
first thing) so I miss my chance. I also hate to intrude on topics that are already
in progress which Is why you'll usually see me standing off to the side in face to
face conversation, and not see me at all In a forum.
Thirdly, I tend to cling to people who are nice to me. Probably because every person
I've ever loved and opened up to in my life has abandoned me.I'm always terrified of
losing a friend.
And lastly, I'm sorry for not being the kind of person who researches everything
related to anything they like. So sorry when I get a fact wrong, or misjudge
something because I don't look at every single detail about it.
I wasn't referring to anyone in particular except myself, so don't take any of this
to heart, even though I'd still like to let everyone know that I feel just a bit
underappreciated in life and on the web. I don't want to cause any drama or anything,
I just had to rant.