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Wednesday, 19 January 2011
11:41:14 PM (GMT)
I worry too much.
about every thing. 
I think that's why I get so upset so easily, and start hurting myself.
I don't know how to deal with anything anymore.
I lock myself in my basement and hide from everything.
I hold on to things that happened forever ago.
Everytime I try to forget something I just think about it more.
If I supress things and feelings, I just feel them stronger later on.
I avoid alot of people, including friends and family.
I force a smile every day.
I rarely trust anyone.
I hate looking at myself.
I generally hate myself and life.
I often wish I could kill myself without anyone caring I'm gone.
I actually attempted suicide 3 years ago, and it scares me to know that I've tried,
and that I so often want to do it again.
I love the feeling I get from cutting myself, but I hate trying to hide the scars.
I cry myself to sleep.
I hate all of these things, but I most of all hate who I've become, and what is to
come. I can't stand change whatsoever, it scares me more than anything.

I thank any of you that read this, and comment if you have any advice or just wanna
say you understand.

‹the Gaythiest› says :   20 January 2011   249504  

I never knew about this? And we've been friends for about a
year now. WHY? Why in the world would you cut or want to attempt
suicide? I REALLY don't think it's going to be possiblefor you to
commit suicide and for anyone not to care. If something was wrong you
could've told me and I would have been able to help you and actually
try. I really care about you Bree and I don't like this self-violence
thing. If you have something to talk about you can always talk to me
I'm here for you. Online or off.


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