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Sunday, 17 October 2010
06:38:48 PM (GMT)
"Just pull yourself together" :o 

We all hear it sometimes.  We might even tell it to ourselves.  For a while now I've
been really messed up and I've believed that I should be able to be happy at any time
because of my faith in Christ, and if I'm not happy then I just don't have enough
faith.  It really feels like this Sunday that Bill was talking to me specifically.  I
mean, he even used one of my 3 favorite verses.

He talked about how computers were supposed to make our lives easier and to give us
less work than before.  Obviously the opposite has happened.  Today it seems most
people are inn a melancholy.  Life just seems burdensome and heavy.

Depression is defined in a lot of ways.  Here's one I think does a good job.  "A
persistent feeling of helplessness and hopelessness" Depression doesn't stay static,
its a slipping or falling feeling.  Things continuously get worse.

There are many many many different types of depression, so I'll be focusing on the
most common one.

* A sense that no one cares or understands.
* You become increasingly selfish and self-centered.  
* Feeling rejected and finding reasons to in turn reject others.
* Feeling unforgivable, even by the person who loves you most. "If only you knew the
things I've done..."

The most common type of depression is Reactive Depression, which is what I've been
wrestling with for a while.  It has a cue, a recurring cause.  It can be physical or
emotional or situational.  It can be caused by anger, guilt, grief, feeling like a
failure, being yelled at, etc. 

I don't know if you are aware, but there are plenty of individuals in the bible who
become depressed.  Moses, Elijah, Jonah, and the man we'll be covering, David. 

Here is David's Psalm 55

 1 Listen to my prayer, O God,
       do not ignore my plea;

 2 hear me and answer me.
       My thoughts trouble me and I am distraught

 3 at the voice of the enemy,
       at the stares of the wicked;
       for they bring down suffering upon me
       and revile me in their anger.

 4 My heart is in anguish within me;
       the terrors of death assail me.

 5 Fear and trembling have beset me;
       horror has overwhelmed me.

 6 I said, "Oh, that I had the wings of a dove!
       I would fly away and be at rest-

 7 I would flee far away
       and stay in the desert;

 8 I would hurry to my place of shelter,
       far from the tempest and storm."

 9 Confuse the wicked, O Lord, confound their speech,
       for I see violence and strife in the city.

 10 Day and night they prowl about on its walls;
       malice and abuse are within it.

 11 Destructive forces are at work in the city;
       threats and lies never leave its streets.

 12 If an enemy were insulting me,
       I could endure it;
       if a foe were raising himself against me,
       I could hide from him.

 13 But it is you, a man like myself,
       my companion, my close friend,

 14 with whom I once enjoyed sweet fellowship
       as we walked with the throng at the house of God.

 15 Let death take my enemies by surprise;
       let them go down alive to the grave,
       for evil finds lodging among them.

 16 But I call to God,
       and the LORD saves me.

 17 Evening, morning and noon
       I cry out in distress,
       and he hears my voice.

 18 He ransoms me unharmed
       from the battle waged against me,
       even though many oppose me.

 19 God, who is enthroned forever,
       will hear them and afflict them—
       men who never change their ways
       and have no fear of God.

 20 My companion attacks his friends;
       he violates his covenant.

 21 His speech is smooth as butter,
       yet war is in his heart;
       his words are more soothing than oil,
       yet they are drawn swords.

 22 Cast your cares on the LORD
       and he will sustain you;
       he will never let the righteous fall.

 23 But you, O God, will bring down the wicked
       into the pit of corruption;
       bloodthirsty and deceitful men
       will not live out half their days.
       But as for me, I trust in you.

People might say to you "Where's your God now, did he leave you?  Ye of little faith.
 If you had more, you would be well."  Which is all untrue.

Here are the steps, and I'm sure there are others who have posted step by step
instructions as well.

1. Admit it.
2. Don't fear it or it will control you Romans 8 says "38For I am convinced that
neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[m] neither the present nor the
future, nor any powers, 39neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all
creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus
our Lord."
3. Know the Hope of God.  He says he can turn and work anything and everything that
happens to bring some good to the world.  Nothing is out of his sight nor his reach
and he is never caught by surprise or inconvenienced. 

Rest.  Make the time to sit and read what God has to say and meditate on it.  Don't
let it go in one eye and out the other.

Depression urges us to withdraw and to become more selfish, and we must engage and
invest in others and love others to counteract it.  Try not to focus on yourself in a

So what?

Be patient with yourself and with others.
Be loving.
Be affirming and corrective to others.  To affirm is to build them up, not tear them
down.  To let them know when they're doing something right or well.
Be biblicists.  Know what God has to teach us and always be growing.
Last edited: 17 October 2010

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