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Wednesday, 26 May 2010
11:42:32 AM (GMT)
heyy... so ive never like posted an actual diary before, they've all been like
surveys and stuff
but i just need someone to listen to me, coz my lifes so suckish right now, i dont
think it could get any worse :S

okay, so i got back from my holiday in turkey two days ago... and already ive noticed
my lifes not how i left it two weeks ago.

firstly my boyfriend and bestfriend have been really depressed and down. one minute
they'll be fine, and then the next they'll have their head in there hands, like
they're about to cry.

... and its not like i can do anything to help them, coz they're not tell me
anything... its always 'ill tell you later', 'it doesnt matter' ... and tbh it breaks
my heart to see them upset when i cant do anything for them

also ive noticed that the two of them are closer than before, well yeah they were
practically best friends before i left, but now they seem 'closer' and my bestfriend
posted a status on facebook saying 'i love you, but i cant have you </3' (she already
has a boyfriend that shes been going out with for almost 3 months)

i mean, what if they wanna be together and im in the way of that?

also my boyfriend has been off with me, he doesnt seem as 'clingy' as he was before,
and im starting to doubt our relationship...

the two of them went to the mentors office this break, (the mentors are like the
schools phyciatrists) and didnt come out for what felt like ages...  

its like theres a giant cloud hanging over my life, and just need someones advice, i
feel like im all alone and no-one cares any more :'(

‹Scarlet_Scandal› suggests:   26 May 2010   188468  
Omg, I feel so sorry for you.
But, even though, don't sit around in self pity, nor others' pity.
The best thing you can do is confront them about it!
‹bluepandaa› says:   26 May 2010   746829  
ahh... so true, thanks for the advice, its made be feel better about
the whole situation 
‹StupidKid› says:   27 May 2010   123049  
Oooh, I'm fricking awful with advice. All I can say is talk to them,
and FORCE them to tell you what's up.... I told you, I'm awful Dx
But yeah, I hope it gets better for you (:
‹carry on my wayward son› says:   27 May 2010   617435  
I'm really curious, so tell me when you find out. C;
‹bluepandaa› says:   27 May 2010   948518  
ahh, thanks for the comments guys 
so i didnt really confrount them, like planned, but i gave them a
taste of their on medicine, bt being off with them. 

but i was planning to confrount them tonight, and sort everyhing  out.
then my friend told me the most heart breaking thing that ive ever

.... the reason why they've been off with me is because my 'boyfriend'
loves my 'best friend'. 

he told her while i was on hoilday and they were being off with me coz
they didnt know what to do.

im gad i know now, and that theres no more secrets, both of them are
quite upset over it and ive given up trying to comfort them.

he says he still loves me, but how can he love two people? worse of
all i sit next to him in science tomorrow, so i get to sit in
akwardness for a whole 1 hour and 40 mins :L

my life sucks right now :'(
‹bluepandaa› says :   28 May 2010   189430  
i finished with him...
and for once in these last 3 weeksim happy 
thanks for the concern :3 x


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