Saturday, 24 October 2009
03:26:34 AM (GMT)
Im suppose to be sleeping with my fiance right now but i really cant sleep. . .
kinda wish he wasn't so far away i mean the only time i get to feel a bit closer is
falling asleep with him and we can imagine how close we are....even if we are
millions of miles away.....I feel so envious of people who fell in love with there
soul mate that lives so close to them.... i wish i was close to him....but i know in
4 years everything will be okie.....everything will be beautiful and wonderful and i
just gatta fight through college and make it....would love to hold his hands.....kiss
his lips.....and hold him tight........think all i can do is imagine he is here with
me somehow..... ._. ....i feel like im in a fairy tale sometimes which is so
wonderful.....im not sure why im writing on here i just dont know really its kinda
nice though such an odd place to but journal entries ish i guess ><~
I hope we can play some more Ragnarok tomorrow i really like it when i can just daze
off and fantasize a bit its nice...guess relaying on a virtual reality is an option i
cling to....it feels so nice.... .___. ackkk~~~~~~ its kinda nice though too i wanna
try out the 3rd jobs ~!~~~~~ i wanna have lotsa fun with him on there~ our little
secrete get away just hope i dun get too attached to it x.x~ hopefully not i dont
wanna get addicted to it again =.=~ ack. . .
Iv....been thinking allot about my ex.....friends lately....checking on them now and
then i hope they are doing alright......Megan with her boyfriend and cloudu with his
new friend ._.~ i hope he is happy.... i hope she is happy.......just want them happy
-shakes head- i miss them allot.....i feel lost without them......it feels strange
too i cant help that sometimes missing....but you cant have everything in
life...sadly its hard realizeing that~ even though its hard..........
ack ima just distract myself a bit i think i get so much in a drawing mood when im
dazed about him.....