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lost and insecure,Category: (general)
Sunday, 21 June 2009
04:46:12 AM (GMT)
you found me, you found me.

Where is Kupika. Where are the people I love. Where did you guys hide them? No, nearly everybody is gone, or going to be gone. I know, it's Summer. :I People have lives too. And I'm getting mine back hopefully before the fourth. Dude, Everybody's leaving. I hate it, who is there. Nicole, Gabe, Anni, Toni,. Okay I'm really tired and can't think of everybody. But Kupika's falling apart. Atleast the important part is, the people. People are dying, running away, other such things. I hate you, I hate you Jesus. Also, recently two people helped me realise what a bitch I am, I know you don't want to read this blah, blah, blah. :/ So what, I need to vent and you can fuck off. So I figured out that I get in everybody's business way too much, and I try to get into conversations way too much. People just end up getting pissed at me, or worse. There alot of people here, that I care about. And I am the jealous type. If my friend has a different friend, I automatically think that they're better than me and that my friend doesn't like me anymore. Same with guys. Anyway, I need to change. I want to change. But what the hell. Nobody's supportive around here. And I'm too shy to even talk to my parents about how I feel about anything. I'm afraid to tell my dad certain things because I think he'll abuse me. Why. Who knows. But seriously, this is the reason I always put myself down and never accept compliments, I don't like being complimented, well I do. But I don't. For some reason I want everybody to hate me, because my opinion is that I'm one of the worst people in the whole world. I have very low self-esteem. And I hate it. I mean I don't make myself puke, or not eat. But I blame everything on how I look, and act. Alright I'm finishing because now I'm starting to feel like all I care about is myself, which is probably the vibe you, you know what. Just go back to what you were doing. Sorry for wasting your time. DDDD:

‹EscapeFromAtrocity› says:   21 June 2009   642659  
"For some reason I want everybody
to hate me, because my opinion is that I'm one of the worst people in
the whole world."
I'm lost.
brilliantlights says :   22 June 2009   338262  
gabe isn't gone

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