Monday, 30 March 2009
09:06:00 PM (GMT)
I feel like i've lost a lot.
I can't remember anything, maybe it's just a mental block.
But i'm sick of it.
Doing the same thing every day.
I keep waiting for something improtant to happen.
Just living through this misery.
Much as i say i like to be alone.
Sometimes, I'm lying.
I get so lonely.
The thoughts just creep in.
I can't escape them on my own.
I sometimes end up sitting in tears and i don't know why.
Or i'll sit and stare at the wall for ages without moving.
Some days, i jut put my ipod on, turn all the sound up and close my eyes.
I want to scream.
I have thought about it before.
I've sat and imagined my own funeral
Scary thought eh?
I've tried to look at people's lifes.
To see what they would be like.
Yeah, so you'd all miss me at first.
But i'd fade.
Soon just a distant memory.
Somewhat like a dream.
Guess thats just wonderful little me isn't it.
Fact: I'm over- emotional
Anyways, i guess there wasn't any point in me writing this.
I don't know why i just sat and wrote all that.
It doesn't matter
But if you like, you can message me, i'll let you hack me?
I like reading all the little things you guys write.
They sometimes help cheer me up.
Write me a letter in a Diary, so that i'll keep it forever.
And, Yeah maybe i just am that fucked up inside that even i don't know whats going
Last edited: 30 March 2009