Monday, 16 June 2008
01:18:17 PM (GMT)
Wow. I can't belive I waited this long. I've been able to stand firm, stand without
a scratch or scar.
That's not true anymore. Today, I'm
I couldn't stand firm anymore, I couldn't live hopeful.
I thought this would never happen, I never thought I woud break, break by....you.
I loved you, I trusted you, I told things no one else knew, I said things I've never
said to anyone.
You made my heart beat, you filled my with excitment and butterflys. It was such a
I'm afraid, I think that feeling is gone.
You not showing up, around the time you should have, or at the right place, just hit
me like a cement wall.
All the fun things I had in mind, all the things I wanted to do with you, all my
plans and dreams and hopes...
gone. I let you in even when it hurt. There are things I didn't want you to
Although Im very disapointed in you, and feel as I've lost all trust in you, I still
I will do anything to make everything better. I feel as I should be royaly pissed off
I feel as if I should hate you, but I just cant hate you. I feel as if I should end
things for good, seeing as
all the pain you've put me through, but I can't bring myself to do it, since I've
caused you pain too
which I'm utterfly sorry for.
I know you get online sometimes, when you should be here, with me, giving me sweet
and holding me tight like your never going to let me go. So, please read this, and
please reply back.
I know, you think I'm very angry, very ticked off, very pissed, but I'm not. I just
want to know if your safe.
I'm not mad at you, I love you, I swear on everything we've ever had, everything
thing weve gone through.
I love you, always,