Wednesday, 8 August 2007
03:27:36 AM (GMT)
well my dads out, my brothers out and my bords asleep...so im here aimlessly wasting
my time on the computer contemplating wether or not to bugger off and do something
creative or mindlessly time bullshit for any person with enough time and caring to
bother to read this. My dads a smoking alchoholic dickhead who is obssessed (or so i
see it) with hurting me or taking out any tiny little agonising pain on me. My mum
died mid march and since then dads been seeing Ziggy. Got an annoying brother who
thankfully is out and gone for now and my gawgus bird is asleep as i may have already
said but as you may have guessed i am now runnign for queen of rambling.
Well i have a problem (typically as i am a teenager lol)
I love someone who likes someone else. they are a cloise friend of mune and i have no
fucking idea how to deal with it. i openly cry about it during calss and they are
convinced that im fine. How do i tell them how much the fuck i love them and how i
hate it that they like someone else. So its true that im protective and am easyly
jealous which is funny beacuse i never used to see why people got so envious over
things like that. I mean wenevr X (the name im gonna use for the person i like) even
touches someone else i get really jealous like REALLY! jealous. i end up digging deep
holes into my palms with my nails trying to stop myself having (yet another)
If anyone has a way i can deal with this, get over it or let them know PLEASE PLEASE
PLEASE message me!
i really need help with it, actually i though writing about it would help like a sort
of theraputic type thingy but apparently not as i could continuosly ramble on about
it until the diary decides that even though it doesnt have a limit that i have
written way too much. In fact im surprised that your still rading this as i have
rambled on for *Goddess knows how Long.
Ok well, finally i have to get a moooove on.
* I am Wiccan and we pray to the Goddess