Friday, 4 January 2013
10:17:36 PM (GMT)
I am kind of super angry. I kinda want to scream.
There's this guy that I've liked for 5 years. Since my seventh grade year.
We have been best friends for 3 years, and we hang out normally once a week.
I know that saying you are in love is completely irrational for high schoolers, but I
think love is what I am feeling.
I think about him all the time. Not in an obsessive way, but I wonder if anything
could be more than just a friendship.
In my religion, you can't date before sixteen, or at least it is advised not to, and
I followed that guideline because that's what I wanted.
He would tell me before that I would always be asked to dances, that I would be asked
on dates, that of course there are guys that like me.
But ever since I turned sixteen, his comments like that have stopped.
He hasn't taken me on a date and he told me he would.
Did he lose the affection he had for me?
He blew off our plans for tonight. We were going to chill at his house and play some
Halo and Minecraft (I know, nerdy, but it's what we do together) to do his homework.
He is the same religion as I am, but he takes it more seriously. He doesn't even do
homework on Sunday.
So he told me after school he had too much homework to do and that he couldn't hang
out with me anymore. We had been planning to hang out for two weeks.
When he told me that, I wanted to cry. I was frustrated and upset.
I didn't take it so well, and we argued, not to fiery, but I did protest.
We normally walk to our cars together, but he blew me off afterwards. Which is fine.
I can deal. But I was already upset, you know?
So I went in my car, and sat there waiting for my little sister, trying not to cry.
He walked out and I did notice. He tapped on my window to talk to me and I calmed
down, and we laughed like normal...
But now I'm sitting at my aunt's watching her kids so she can go out instead of
hanging out with him.
Why is he acting like this?
He's always been really nice to me, and I thought he might have liked me back, but
now I'm not so sure... What can I do to find out how he feels?
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