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Tuesday, 11 October 2011
10:42:25 PM (GMT)
Sometimes, you just don't know what to say. Or how to explain something, without it sounding wrong. Or being afraid that it will be taken the wrong way. I think something's wrong with me. Like, I think something is seriously wrong with me. I'm not saying it's not fixable, but it's there, and I don't have the courage to tell anyone that could help. Depression. No, I haven't done my research, and I really don't know much about it, but I'm pretty sure I do. I don't really know how to talk about it, and I'm trying to figure it out. It comes down to how I keep everything inside. I act chill, when things really aren't chill. And then I go home, and punch a wall. Ladylike, right? And when I look in the mirror, I cringe. Id like to think it's a teenage girl thing, but I really don't know anymore. I'm off to do my research, I'm not in denial. Thanks for reading.

‹EvilSpaceSpaghetti› says:   11 October 2011   655283  
I have depression. You can talk to me.
SwingingInTheRain says:   11 October 2011   295592  
So I went, and I searched, and now I'm confused. 
I was told, I have post traumatic stress disorder. 
Thing is, I haven't had a traumatic event.
‹EvilSpaceSpaghetti› says:   11 October 2011   623177  
I have no logical answer for that.
Maybe...maybe we're just moody teenagers, and we're smart enough that
we know we should be being rational even though we aren't, which
confuses us and makes us think there's something wrong with us?
Or maybe I'm just fucking stupid?
SwingingInTheRain says:   12 October 2011   248143  
Oh, but... I've thought about that as well. 
And taken it into consideration. It's all so complicated. 
‹EvilSpaceSpaghetti› says:   12 October 2011   788196  
qwjhfuiqhwiuqwiuqeu okay.
‹Fairy.Wind.› says:   16 October 2011   599848  
Did my research. Self image neurosis, body dysmorphic disorder (BDD),
ADHD which gives me secondary depression every so often, yeah, I'm
SwingingInTheRain says:   16 October 2011   745830  
I choose to ignore any of my self image problems and solve them by
simply not looking in mirrors. 
‹Fairy.Wind.› says :   16 October 2011   990249  
I cry everytime I look in a mirror or photograph of myself. 


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