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Monday, 30 May 2011
09:38:38 AM (GMT)
Okay, there will probably be lots of offensive content in this, so if you don't care
for swearing or depression, kindly bugger off now.

Just broke up with my boyfriend.
Too many thinks are screwing up my life right now, and yes, I want to go die in a
hole. Or, alternatively, I could go sit in a hole, and someone could fill it in.
Revision doesn't seem to be working when you have too many fucked up throughts
floating around your head, and I'm terrified of screwing up my GCSEs because of some
crap that will probably seem insivnificant in a couple months.
My friends are avoiding me because they think I'm turning emo, and hey, they're
probably right.

I can't even cry anymore cause I'm scared someone will see me and laugh. Or use it
against me. Or both.

For all you idiots out there who are just reading this diary to tell me that there
are people out there worse off than me, screw you, okay?
At the moment, I don't give a shit about anyone.
Yes, I'm being petty.
Yes, I'm being selfish.
I don't care.  All I want is to get through my exams in one piece.

So go ahead, hate away.  I don't give a fuck anymore.
I'm not going to go kill myself. Why? Because then my parents might suspect that I'm
not happy.

But you know the worst part?
How I'm so lucky, and still can't be happy.
How I feel like I'm a fake.
How I'm too much of a coward to tell someone.

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