Monday, 8 February 2010
01:31:10 PM (GMT)
I'm sorry. This has happened before. I'm completely ignoring
everything. I log on, and out.
Aside from that
My sister thinks she's found Cole. For those who don't know, he was my very special
childhood friend, who was a year older than me. We shared an alley when we were
younger, and his grandma lived beside me when his parents moved away[or got
divorced]. Haha. We were always together, and yes, he was older than me.
The only thing that makes me mad is the fact that she says I love him. It's not just
her, but my parents as well. Not funny. I don't believe in love, haha. So, indeed, it
is complicated, and no, it's not because of some love sick puppy story.
But I was wondering, lately, I've only been thinking about him and Josh, about how
similar they are and were. And the fact they both left me. After that I started
trying to figure out if either one would remember me. It hurts, ya'know?
Knowing that theer's a huge possibility that Cole doesn't remember me at all,
especially after ten years. I don't even know why, but it just scares me, scares me
so badly, my whole body begins to ache.
But look at that, all I'm doing is complaining. #$@WZ#@%
So, sorry for the random splurch on some of my random feelings.