Thursday, 17 December 2009
03:09:27 AM (GMT)
semi-long rant. need to get out my feelings. read at your own risk.
i need advice or help or something, if anyone does read this.
if i sound whiny at all, in any way, i'm sorry.
YOU HAVE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME.
you just had to fucking break up with him, didn't you? because of fucking me.
didn't you think that he would be totally pissed off at me? no, i didn't want you to
date him. that's because he's my ex-boyfriend and i'm jealous and i love him and i
want him to be with me. but i want him to be happy, too. he doesn't want to be with
me. and he was happy. but you just had to break up with him because of how i felt.
even though i told you to do what you want. i told you how amazing he is and how any
girl is lucky to date him. and you know that even though i wish he was with me, i'm
happy that i at least got to feel real bliss and happiness, and i got the chance to
be loved by him at least for a couple of months. I DID NOT TELL YOU TO FUCKING
BREAK UP WITH HIM. what makes this even fucking worse is that you know how hard
it is for me to move on. but i'm trying. i like jacob and he found out, thanks to
that stupid gay bitch jason. but i'm still trying to move on and be with him if he
wants to be with me. even though i'm in love with josh and it's hard as hell to move
on. do you realize how much harder you just made that? except now i doubt that
there's any possibility that josh will even consider being with me again. i doubt he
even wants to be best friends anymore, or friends at all really. he wants to yell at
me, but he said he wasn't going to. even though i said he could because i deserved
it. he wouldn't.
thanks a whole fucking lot.
you just have to cause all this drama, don't you?