Saturday, 2 May 2009
11:09:06 PM (GMT)
Am I like, completely invisible sometimes?
Is listening all I'm fucking capable of.
"She was the only reason I was going to stay, anyway."
DO I NOT MATTER?
Just because a girl, who is constantly hurting you, constantly mad at you for no
fucking reason, breaks a promise you decided to get all depressed. I knew you were
suicidal and shit but over that? Dude. Get the fuck over it. She had sex. Life moves
the hell on.
I love you to death, honestly,
but can't you see her ALWAYS hurting you?
I've never ever hurt you like that. Never.
Never broken a GodDamn promise.
And any secret you were specific about me keeping, they didn't get told.
I'm sure that
bitch has told people your secrets before.
I hate to be mad at you, and normally I wouldn't.
Maybe you didn't hear what you were saying,
shall I remind you?
"She's the only reason I was going to stay in Georgia."
"We promised we wouldn't do it until we thought we found the one." (which on that,
were you hoping the YOU were the one? Because I'm pretty damn sure she thinks her
boyfriend is the one, just from the way she talks about him.)
"And I can die now, since like all my friend's aren't virgins and don't care about me
I CARE. WTF. And in all technicality, I am a virgin tyvm.
You know what else sucks about you, and I've realized this recently,
I love you. So fucking much. And I can't get over you.
But You don't love me.
Not like that.
And maybe you don't love me at all and I missed something.
And I hate it. Because you don't seem to realize I still love you so much.
And I feel like it's going to be your fault if I can't move on.
Because it is.
And you play me. Like...
Like I'm a toy or something.
And I hate it!
But I can't help but love you! And that makes me want to cry because you act like you
don't even CARE.
I'm beginning to not be able to stand you.
I don't want to talk to you for a few months.
That would be nice. I could forget about you.
I'm stuck seeing you every goddamn day at school, every sunday at church.
Why can't I get over you?