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Sunday, 15 July 2012
11:29:37 PM (GMT)
All right, I'll just tell you right now; Wyatt is my best friend and if you've been
to his profile you've seen all his BOTDF stuff. (He's obsessed.) I think I used to
worse tho. I never had as much collectables and merch as he has, (his entire room is
stuffed full of BOTDF stuff) but I was truly and deeply obsessed to the fullest
extent of the word. I would think things like, "I don't even like guys anymore. The
only person in the entire world I love is Dahvie Vanity. I just want to marry him
no one else. I just want him and no one else." In a sense, (I never thought it at
time, but now I realize) I thought he was a god. I thought he was perfect. I thought
he was just so special, and why? Because his music was/is all about making people
feel good. And I wanted to feel good, and I believed he could make me feel good. Of
course, eventually I realized that he was just a celebrity who, even if I met, I
would never have any real relationship with. (I did meet him, but that's another
story. Suffice to say, his hugs feel like ecstasy, and I had to get like three
I would step away from him.) But even after meeting him, I still knew that I
shouldn't rely on someone who was, no matter how intimately I felt I knew him,
a stranger. Slowly, (and painfully, because I felt guilty, as if I was "betraying
him") I got over my obsession. 

Today I think he's a little different than way back when I loved him; he has songs
which he asks people who are struggling to rely on HIM. As if he's God or something.
It's ridiculous, and I think he's more than a little crazy (being beautiful does not
make you exempt from the effects of  drugs.) In one song, he says something like,
don't commit suicide because, "If you give up on life.... You give up on me." It's a
nice thought. He wants to make people feel good, as always. He really does CARE
his fans. But he's going about it all wrong. He's no god, he can't solve people's
problems. But yet, it's easy to see how devoted his fans are. Many are like I used
be: they feel bad, Dahvie tells them how to feel good, and they get caught up in

‹☞☠ⓘηη☮☪єηт☣HⓘƃH☠☜› says:   16 July 2012   966922  
Alex. I hate how I'm the only one who still likes BOTDF still. o.e

Okay the part where you talk about him being a "god" or some form of
deity. He is just trying to make the fans not feel alone. I know you
may interpret it differently than I do, but I feel good listening to
the music and knowing that even though I'm struggling with my issues
in life, I can turn to their music to make me feel better and focus on
the future. Yes I'll admit, I do get a little bit obsessive with the
whole merchandise thing, but I support him 110% and everything that he
does for his fans. I probably sound like a stupid fanboy, but it's the

Have you seen the new fangirls/boys nowadays. OMFG THEY ARE ANNOYING
But anyways, they are always like posting pictures of them cutting
themselves and sending them to him on his twitter. It's so pathetic
that they would do that just to get attention from their favorite
music artist. 
‹✖[[AntisocialButterfly]]✖› says:   16 July 2012   464855  

‹☞☠ⓘηη☮☪єηт☣HⓘƃH☠☜› says:   16 July 2012   791033  

No i read it all. I just pointed out the parts that I don't agree
‹✖[[AntisocialButterfly]]✖› says:   16 July 2012   980864  



‹☞☠ⓘηη☮☪єηт☣HⓘƃH☠☜› says:   16 July 2012   366393  
Meow meow. D: 
branches says:   16 July 2012   943910  
I don't think he's saying "you" to the fans as in "don't you kill
yourself because I'll fix you or w/e", I think he's meaning to speak
to someone he loves that's having a bitch of a time or something. But
I've never listened to a BOTDF song in my life so

But uh
Yeah I think tons of people use bands for escapism and sort of end up
‹✖[[AntisocialButterfly]]✖› says:   16 July 2012   838797  

I've never thought of that.. I wonder why? I guess it's because he
just makes it seem like he really is talking to his fans. But I DON'T

And YES. Bandmembersexualism. That's what it is. 
‹✖[[AntisocialButterfly]]✖› says:   16 July 2012   787575  

Okay Wyatt... The reason I was annoyed last night, is because nothing
you just said disagrees with ANYTHING I just said. And I didn't say
anything negative about them. It's just true that Dahvie wants people
to depend on him somehow. And. 

That's disturbing. If I was Dahvie I'd have no idea how to respond,
because how can you tell who's seriously got problems and who's just
lovesick? But then again, I guess either way, if they're willing to
hurt themselves for attention they do have serious problems. But
like.. I have no freaking idea of what Dahvie thinks of it. Does he
just ignore it? Or what? 
‹☞☠ⓘηη☮☪єηт☣HⓘƃH☠☜› says:   16 July 2012   457553  
All bands depend on their fans to look up to them because if they
didn't they wouldn't be as popular as they are. BOTDF isn't the only
band that does this. I just wish that we could listen BOTDF like the
old days and just enjoy it and not have to worry about the actions
that Dahvie does.
And you actually have said negative things when we were driving around
in Omaha when I was trying to listen to them in my car. Anyways...

Yeah it truly is disturbing. These like 12 year olds are so fucking
retarded. WTF is wrong with them? I get that they are obsessive
because let's face it every person that age is usually overly
protective and obsessed like we were with Paramore and Avril Lavigne.
The only difference is that we didn't go to extreme measures just to
get noticed by them. Even if we were to attempt to get attention we
would go about it in a different way. I can't even understand the new
fans when they type either. "thay tipee lyke diss" and it's so fucking
annoying @__@
They type like Kitty for god sake and we know how horrible that shit
is. xD 
‹✖[[AntisocialButterfly]]✖› says :   16 July 2012   858101  

lol Wyatt. STFU about that. I was just venting. OKAY. motherfuck. 

And omg. Kitty. I can NEVER understand what she's saying! XD 


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