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i just need to get this out of my systemCategory: (general)
Wednesday, 1 June 2011
10:44:10 PM (GMT)
dear lord i am getting a headache because of all the things going on inside my head
and the conversations i'm having with myself are becoming increasingly frustrating
and i can't be bothered to use proper capitalization or grammar anymore

i think the headache is because i'm about to cry and i don't want to because crying
sucks and i don't know why i'm about to anyway but i won't, i promise
there's something wrong with me because i almost want something to really be wrong
with me so i have a solid reason to justify feeling this way
i'm worried because my best friend is going somewhere else for school next year and i
won't be able to talk to her as much and she's the only one in real life that i think
gets me
and i didn't get into jazz choir and that's destroying me for some reason and my
other friends keep talking about how they got in and it's so awesome in front of me
and i keep having to leave because i'm not good enough
i can't write anything without sounding whiny so i'm sitting here typing my thoughts
and rocking back and forth because i'm like that, apparently
the days are okay but my nights are terrible because i can't sleep and my vision is
blurred now and my throat is burning and i can't fucking type
i want people to notice but not worry and that's impossible because i'm going off the
fucking hinges insane
i broke my promise

I'm okay now, really.
That has never happened to me before.

‹ciaranic0le› says:   1 June 2011   757613  
you're going to be okay.
even though I'm not physically there to be with you, I'm ALWAYS here.
so you, dear, when you message me, must tell me everything.
I love you.
‹it's Felix, bro. c:› says:   1 June 2011   768477  
I hope so.

Thank you, Ciara. <3
I love you too. 
‹ciaranic0le› says :   1 June 2011   508737  
you better, boo<3

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