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Wednesday, 4 November 2009
02:42:56 AM (GMT)
I give up. I will try to explain my actions to you in a way you will
understand,say your in a race [car race] one that you've been in before and won. and
well now your tied for 1st. You want the gold trophy, and your pushing yourself to
get it. Your trying but you just can't get in front of the other car. Then the car
comes at you, hits your side and throws you off and gets in front of you. you try to
catch up but the other car is to far ahead. then the car crosses the finish
line....they get the gold trophy...Do you still go for the gold even though it
already belongs to someone else? No, you have to forget about 1st and go for 2nd. But
while your trying for 2nd your hurt form the hit and upset from not getting first. So
you just give up, you don't try. Golds already taken so whats the point, right? At
the end of the race you go up to the car that got first place to say good race, just
to find out it was your best friend  that you told the only thing in the world you
want is that gold trophy and not only did they know and tried to beat you [with a
slam in the side] but they went behind your back and didn't tell you. You feel
betrayed and alone, like no one cares. You have no one to talk to. Knowing the trophy
is someone else's theres no reason to try anymore. That was the only trophy you ever
wanted and no other trophy will never mean as much. So you end your racing career all
because your just not good enough anymore. 

Get the picture? 
Last edited: 31 January 2010

powerplays says:   4 November 2009   102347  
remember, u didnt give up and u finished the race. plus there will be
another race, many more that you will be in. some u will win and some
u will lose. never quite racing.
falling_from_grace says:   4 November 2009   658467  
lol Thanks. but do you even understand what I'm saying?
powerplays says:   4 November 2009   922259  
ur future bf got taken by ur bestfriend or some award for performance
was given to someone else??
falling_from_grace says:   4 November 2009   852913  
how about my ex-boyfriend [who i broke up with but still love] is now
dating my best friend. even though i told her i still loved him and
wanted to get back together. so she asked him out before i told him
how i felt to make sure she would get him. 

so you were close.
powerplays says:   4 November 2009   236771  
then consider it a no loss and move on. ur now ahead of the game
without him.
falling_from_grace says:   4 November 2009   188647  
but i still love him. i can't just move on.
‹♥FalseEuphoria.› says:   4 November 2009   304578  
I see what you mean. I've been in your situation before. 
You shouldn't let that get the best of you, learn to keep
feelings like that to yourself unless you truly trust that 
one person, whether it be a dude or a chick. Your a great 
girl, Hope. You'll make some guy out there in the world 
happy. Don't dwell on the past, it only amplifies your own
pain. If she was your 'best friend', she would have never
done that to you, she was easy to betray you just for a 
stupid bonehead boy. Yes, I understand; you still love him.
But isn't the relationship over? 
Trust me, I still love my ex. &If he moves on to someone
else, that is his business. Your friend should've known 
better. But think of it this way, she only got your sloppy
falling_from_grace says:   6 November 2009   898100  
Thanks for the advice. It really helps and it made me smile. =]
But its so hard. I do keep my feelings to myself and I feel like thats
why I'm in this mess.
‹♥FalseEuphoria.› says:   7 November 2009   276984  
Thats true. But in my eyes, you should see this as an opportunity.
There are plenty of fish in the sea. :D
falling_from_grace says :   7 November 2009   429598  
lol yeah. ^^


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