Sunday, 17 June 2007
04:49:41 PM (GMT)
i hate this self pity i always do :/
but hell... what else could i write bout?
today we, my mother and i, had another fight..
it didnt go well.. i lost for the first time.. :/
most likely im gonna be send(or what the hell) to
some rehab(dunno if its called that :S) and
my 'boyfriend' says that he´s gonna kill himself
if they do :S the worst part, i dont really care if he do.
i´ve grown up all my life, learning that it doesnt matter
if you care for a person or not.. they´re gonna die anyway.
So it took me like six years to trust a person and when i did,
he went and cheated on me. great, huh?
then i found that i could trust my friend and then i found four new
friends. i decided i wanted to change, so i told them everything bout
me and still two of them love me.
both of them is 'the perfect boyfriend' yanno... but still, i cant 'be' with
a guy without thinking its gross. oh no, not like that!
what im saying is..the fact that im the girl in the relationship really takes my