Saturday, 5 July 2014
03:27:50 PM (GMT)
OKAY SO LIKE
part of me is just this laid back chill lazy apathetic indifferent hippie bitch that
just needs to sleep
and then there's this other part of me
that's like, "WE ARE GOING TO PRACTICE EVERYTHING SO WE CAN DO
and that's why I'm putting myself through so much fucking bullshit
I can't even play guitar and yet I keep forcing myself to play guitar
AM I GETTING BETTER??? NOOOOOOO!!!!!
DO MY FINGERS HURT AND IS MY PINKIE A WORTHLESS PIECE OF SHIT ATTACHED TO MY HAND
THAT I DON'T HAVE SUFFICIENT CONTROL OVER??????
and tomorrow I'm taking a fucking kendo class? wtf?
what the fuck
why am I learning to speak Japanese?
why do I have to do all these things?
fuck this shit
I don't want to do this shit
and yet I really fucking want to do this shit
and yet this is really fucking frustrating and it makes me cry and hate my life
but I'd hate my life anyway so like I might as well be crying for a reason right?