Wednesday, 21 May 2014
02:14:45 PM (GMT)
So I met someone. I actually met someone. Me.
He's the same age as he, mature, a gentleman, we love similar things and the
connection between us is incredible, even though we're new to each other. It may
sound strange, but I never thought I would meet someone like him. Maybe I look at
myself in a negative light too much, maybe that's half of my problem. To him though,
I'm just Calvin. He likes me, sometimes I'm not sure of how much he likes me but he
wants to be friends with me and that means more to me than I can imagine at the
moment. I've been quite lonely recently, I can't really put into words just how
lonely I've felt, but I know it was the loneliest I've been in a long time.
I like him a lot, it's just a little complicated in some respects. He still has
feelings for someone and I'm just a total idiot. However, I do really like him. He's
kind, he's handsome, he's so intelligent and he respects me. There's not many people
like that in the world any more. He is one of a kind. Maybe I'm getting carried away,
maybe my heart is searching for something that he and I may never have, but God, I
want to. I really want to. I daydream of so much, I only wish I could understand how
he felt about me. I fear that my heart may be broken once again.