Okay. I know what to do. I gave my sister the same advice when she
found out she was pregnant.
First, get a counselor.This you are going through is called PPD, or
Postpartum Depression. All mothers go through it, but yours is kind of
severe. get someone to talk to about it immediately before you make
any decisions regarding suicide, or filicide. This will really help.
You might even get medications. My mother had them, and they helped
her before she had me.
Talk to an adoption agency about an closed or open adoption. That was
plans would be made before hand. If you have the baby, social services
will be waiting at the hospital to take it if you don't want it.
If you choose to have the baby, get a friend, a friends mom, or
someone other to help you. Buy things before hand. Plan out a schedule
a week before your due date so everything can be at least semi-planned
when you have the baby.
I don't recommend abortion, because it will only stress you out.
Feelings of guilt and "what if..." aren't good for you.
Most importantly, chika...relax. Fuck people ( excuse my language)
Focus on you and the baby. Go to doctor appointments. Being pregnant,
or the one good thing about it, is DOING YOU. Relax. Eat a sandwich.
Drink a smoothie and RELAX.
I'm here if you need me, too. I have 5 sisters and all of them have