Wednesday, 25 April 2012
03:37:18 AM (GMT)
I was reading through all my old diary entries, noticing some things I'd forgotten.
Like how happy I was with Austin in the beginning.
I won't settle for anything less than that happiness. Austin's long gone. I mean,
I'll always love the Austin I knew, the one in my memories, but I'm ready to move on.
He's not coming back, and I'll just have to deal with that.
The other thing I noticed is how quickly I transitioned between guys who weren't
Austin. I'm an asshole. I'll have to fix that.
I'm going to escape this dull, numb, absence of feeling again, just wait. It'll just
take alot of fake smiling and laughing before it becomes real.
But I'm going to make it happen. <3