This diary entry is written by XxDemonic_AstridxX. ( View all entries )
Sunday, 2 May 2010
11:39:47 PM (GMT)
i seriously don't know what to do. at home, its like im not good enough to be thier
daughter. they expect me to know everything. and when i dont they get so mad at me
and then im grounded. why am i so stupid? i dont know.
and then my boyfriend is going off to college soon, while i still have two more years
of high school... and who knows what the future will hold.
aside from that, i can tell he is getting really aggravated with me because im not
really with him at all. i see him in school and at band things but thats about it.
then at school, its between keeping my straight A's and trying to get all the
dramatic shit resolved between my friends. and i really dont have time to even say hi
to him before someone drags me away... i feel bad enough as it is and its like
anytime he wants to go do something together, i cant go because im too stupid to be
able to do anything right and my parents get mad at me.
then with that, his friends are getting annoyed with me because me is usually talking
to me on the phone or at some band related thing with me, when they need him or
something. it just seems to me (and lots of other people) that im taking him away
from his friends and i cant even be with him at all. right now im just surprised we
have been together for 4 months now, and that he hasnt decide that im not worth it
and just leave. i honestly wouldnt be surprised if it does happen. it has before and
it will again. i just know it.
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