Wednesday, 25 November 2009
01:58:18 AM (GMT)
The heat is on, so apparently it's just me.
I'm fucking tired and don't feel like sleeping.
Time sucks. It never stops.
Sometimes I rediscover that fact and it kinda stuns me.
It's like... Damn! Every second I'm closer to dying or something.
And I can never go back.
Things that happened over the summer, last year, the year before that, ect. will
never happen again and there's nothing I can do about it.
I miss my grandfather.
But there's nothing I can do about that now.
It still bothers me though.
I really don't know what I'm doing.
I don't know what I should be doing.
I'm really confused.
I wish people wouldn't make promises they weren't going to keep.
Or at least not talk about them so often.
This might turn into a slam, I'm kinda liking it.
But really I just don't know what else to say so whatever I'm thinking right now is
probably gonna end up in this.
Whatever this is.
I'm watching the O'Reilly Factor.
Bill O'Reilly is kinda cool.
I've decided that if I'm warm I am most likely content.
I hate cold.
Winter hasn't even started yet and I'm already done.
Like I said yesterday, I never talk about things so everything that sucks just
catches up with me eventually and I have to deal with it myself all at once.
That happened last night.
I listened to All She Wanted about six times and fell asleep.
That's how I deal with shit.
Listen to music and sleep.
And I woke up today feeling pretty good.
I had gym with Danny.
He had his red shoes.
He kept hitting me with a stick so I kicked him back a couple times 'cause I didn't
'Cause he was a Jedi Knight and I was not.
It was cute in that weird funny way.
And also a little odd.
Because I don't actually know him.
But he's mah gym buddy.
My family is still giving me shit for being underweight.
I'm not dying or anything.
Every day, "you're too thin."
Yeah, by what, 10 pounds maybe?
I'm not that unhealthy.
I have to go to semi on the 5th.
I really don't want to.
But Becky wants me to, and I'm making Sammie and Dane go so I have to now.
I got the stain out of my dress.
I still don't really want to go.
Homecoming sucked, I don't expect anything better at semi.
And if they play fucking Stairway To Heaven, I'm gonna eat someone.
Every single middle school dance.
Every single one.
I usually left at that point.
Nothing better to do.
They never play any good music though.
Uuuggghhh I don't want to be that awkward one standing with everyone else with a
Or mostly anyway.
That's a lie, I'm actually used to it and don't really mind anymore.
I'm babysitting tomorrow night.
Definitely gonna be a fun night.
I love Clay and Caiden.
I have lightsaber fights with Clay because he's great.
He thinks he's marrying Princess Leah someday.
It's so cute.
I talked to Bekah today, I love her. She makes me smile. And she has the sexiest
And I downloaded 28 Avenged Sevenfold songs between last night and today.
I've decided that most of them sound like death.
I don't like death.
Some are good anyway though.
Circle Game is a great song.
As is So High.
Neither of those are A7X.
I love them even though they're off topic.
I'm going to bed.
Probably readin' some Dean Koontz.
One of his books is currently supporting my aunt's refrigerator.
Text me if you love me.
If you want to.
I've realized when I'm not feeling well I talk like this, in really short sentences.
Because I can't be bothered to put in the effort of writing something real.
And I want a fucking Palmer.
Last edited: 25 November 2009