Monday, 27 July 2009
11:48:51 PM (GMT)
What makes it so hard for me to be around my family.
I mean really.
I feel so uncomfortable. And i feel like they talk about me,
and i feel like they have somthing to tell me that they are too ashamed of.
Im not close to anyone in my family anymore
and im sad because im never at home.
One day i got home and heard my aunt say "he doesnt like being here with his family"
and that made me upset.
then this morning i woke up and went to the living room and i saw my great
grandma and my aunt talking and they saw me and she said "hes awake"
and they stopped talking and walked away.
I mean what the hell?
Im seriously sad about this and its been bugging me for days. This always happens.
Everytime i walk in the room i suddenly feel uncomfortable
and i feel like they are hiding something from me.
even when im in the car with me mom,
If she needs to go to the wal mart or something she will have me
go with her. and there will be this big akward silence
like she has to tell me something but she cant.
I just dont think i know my family anymore.