Friday, 3 July 2009
10:58:20 PM (GMT)
IM TIRED AS HELL OF BIENG ME......
i have no friends i have tons of "friends" people who say "i love you " they all suck
they are all lies and thats all i have,
im tired of bieng one of thoghs people who smile and get throgh it. im tired of me im
tired of the losers in my town im tired of everything i am and everything ive become
im tired of all this SHIT. im tired of living every minet knowing id be better dead
but not for anyone eles it would make me curse in my grave to see my "friends" saying
oh we were so close i knew everything about her we were right beside each other
throgh it all> WRONG BITCH.
no one bilives me no one ever will its just me throgh it all thats it plain and
simple and nothing more than this thats it. AND I DONT WANT IT. i dont want any of
it. i love who i am but i dont want it. i dont want depression i dont want loser good
looks or the power to atract creepy old men. i dont wanna see all the mistakes the
"adults" are making i dont want it. i cant be me i cant show me if i do i become more
alone....i become left all by myself more. im tired of confushion im tired of getting
over it and i dont wanna think of it i want a friend but their is no one without
someone better so i lose.....big fail
im making a mistake posting this but im not gonna stop my self i have more to say but
ive never liked to share and for these resons i rest my crying face every night and
wake up and paint my smile on just for you mom for you so you can have me, your
"flawless" daghter forever to show to the world i hope you like it....merry christmas
for all the times i missed.
now u have walked in my room........