Thursday, 14 February 2008
01:45:21 AM (GMT)
February 14, 2008
-I have two personalities, Noodle (me) and Ashy Noodle (who I used to be). Ashy
Noodle tends to take over only when I need some time alone. She also explains how I
am feeling to other people.
-I am extremely lost and confused. Don't ask me "How are you?" That will piss me off
and I will answer "IDK."
-Yes, I cut. Not often, only when extremely neccessary.
-If you say I'm Emo, I guess I am.
-Ok, fine, I do think I'm Emo because I act just like one, and I LOVE the clothes
that Emos are known to wear. I'm also growing out my hair to get it cut razor style.
-I'm currently working on getting a book finished to send in to be published.
-Nearly everything I do is to please my mother. If she's not proud of me, then who am
I? She bore me, and she isn't proud of me?
-Also, Tabitha is set with her modeling, Tessa will be the genius who goes to
Harvard, and I'm a nobody. My mother doesn't believe I can heal people, save them
from the depths of despair. But I can, and I will show her.
-I've found no one that has been able to heal me from my depression and confusion.
Many have tried; all have failed.
-Full Throttle is my sweet addiction.
-I am trying to be somewhat anorexic so that I can loose weight for the Florida
-Amy Lee sings me to sleep almost every night. Her voice calms me and soothes me. She
is an angel of music for sure, and she is my role model and idol.
-Avril Lavigne is amazing as well, and is also my role model and idol.
-My mother is my role model too. I love her a lot, and she brought me here on this
Earth, and I am grateful to her for putting up with me for 9 months. Thank you, Mom.
I love you.
-Yes, "Striking December" was techniqually about my mother after she pissed me off
one day. But I still love her. Yes, she's insane sometimes and gets so mad, she
strikes me. Yeah, it hurts. Yeah, I get mad and hurt and she's the main reason I cut
myself. But we get over it. Although we are complete opposites and our zodiac signs
don't get along well, she is my mother and we are the same animal on the Chinese
Zodiac Chart. I love my mom, so don't go telling me to call child services. Doesn't
everyone's parents strike them when they misbehave? So shut the fuck up. She's my
MOTHER and I love her a bunch and I hit when I'm mad sometimes too. It's normal.
SHE'S NOT ABUSIVE! She's just crazy sometimes. =]
-Right now, I am not ready to date anyone. I want to find myself, and unless I find
someone I'm completely crazy about, I probally will say no if you ask me out.
So...don't ask me out... (although if its that PV, I just might say yes...)
Last edited: 14 February 2008