Wednesday, 14 September 2011
11:44:39 PM (GMT)
I struggled to find the right word. When today, I saw it. hope.
I guess maybe this is why I feel better overall at the moment. I think, hope is what
I was missing. What was taken from me, when my heart broke.
I'm not saying that my heart isn't broken anymore. No, that's not it at all. But
today...I feel like I regained something. Hope that at some point, I can really,
truly, be happy again.
Today when you sat right next to me during lunch...Well, for one, now I know you
actually aren't repulsed by me like I originally thought.
I feel so strange for saying this. Because the only people who would care enough to
read this both know you.
But, it made me feel happy. We talked. It was fun.
I've decided. I'm no longer content with just stealing glanced at you from across the
courtyard, and thinking to myself how attractive you are.
It's official. I like you.
And then Gerlock texted me. and then I remembered...Hey. I kinda have a
You see, kids, this is what happens when you put things off. It doesn't
matter if it's school assignments, paperwork, or say...breaking up with someone. Do
it as soon as you can.
Because now, guess what? His grandfather is dying. The one he's lived with since he
was a baby.
How the fuck am I supposed to break up with him now??? Of course, maybe it would be
easier since he's already sad...
Why did I even think that?? I'm terrible. ugh, what is life??
This is fuckery.