okay, well if i haven't told any of you ,
i have a "crush" . . and failing to tell him how i feel multiple times.
he finally is now "in a relationship" . . .
i am devastated and very happy for him at the same time. .

i just have the feeling im gonna cry any minute now and i know its because he might
have a girl
thats pretty and i cant measure up to . . not like i want to .
and its been obvious to everyone i know the i like him. . 
we act like a couple . . . . we act like we're together but we're not.
and every time we hug its like i just got sent to heaven for that brief moment. .
and im SO happy with him . . 

today was am fml momnet