i feel very tramatized
very tramatized
so tramatized i might not ever get onto a train again
this is wut happened:

i was headed home from my dad's house on the train to Waldwick station
the train was PACKED so i was forced to go into the space between the two cars
there was another lady with a big black purse
and three guys that looked about 20 or so
the next stop the other lady got off so i was there with them
one of them opened beers and gave them to his friends
i stood as far away as i could which was not much because of the confined space
they drank them and opened new ones
they did this for awhile and started looking tipsy
i pressed against the door to the car so i was away from them and the horrible smell
it was gross!
the one guy stood up and looked at me
he waved and i gave him a small wave back
his friend looked over and said, "look at her! isn't she pretty!"
DISTGUSTING, i thought
he shoved me a beer and i wanted to crash it on the top of his head
instead i placed it on the ground and pushed it away with my foot
his friend that was also standing picked it up and held it out to me
"no!" i told him
but he persisted
"I DON'T WANT IT!" i yelled at him
the third guy got up and grabbed my arm
i kicked him in the shin as hard as i could
it looked like he hardly felt it
my mouth must have opened in amazement and they took an opperatunity
he shoved the bottle into my mouth and i screamed as loud as i possibly could
he tilted it back as his buddies cheered
it tasted soooooo nasty! i almost threw up
the train guy heard me and came in
the guy holding the bottle fell back
pulling me down with him
the next thing i knew i was face to face with the break in the two cars and was
looking at the tracks
i screamed again and tore the bottle out of my mouth
then, i did throw up
everywhere
the train guy arrested the three guys and brought me to the back of the train to help
me clean up

and that is why i don't smile
why i don't laugh
why i don't enjoy watching people fall down stairs
these things always seem to happen to me
the world is out to get me