Tuesday, 28 April 2015
03:36:17 PM (GMT)
I was talking to my mum about someone whom I look up to and whom I considered a dear
friend. I don't want to reveal their name, so I'm going to call them "Jane Doe". Now,
Jane was someone who always had good advice and wasn't afraid to call someone out on
their bullshit. We hadn't always gotten along since she found me weird and annoying
and couldn't out up with me, but she made an effort and I enjoyed talking with her.
I told her about what happened with Travis the second time he gave me hickies and how
I had asked him not to beforehand but he did anyway. Jane told me that the
relationship was unhealthy and I needed to break up with him.
I didn't understand what she meant and defended him.
She told me that if i was going to act like a moron and insist on being stubborn,
then she was leaving.
So, she did.
Mind you, Jane recently had a baby that wasn't planned but is doing all she can to
provide for them and make sure they have the best life ever.
My mum told me that Jane has more experience and she probably meant that if Travis
didn't respect my wishes against bruises then who's to say that he won't respect my
wishes with other things down the road.
I realised she had a point and started to cry because I knew that I lost a good
friend due to my personality flaws and my own ignorance.
I still haven't talked to Jane.
What would I say?
I don't blame her for writing me off.
I would have done the same.