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I don't know what I need.Category: Dear Diary, Fuck You. Sincerely, Lexii.
Saturday, 14 April 2012
12:42:01 AM (GMT)
The concept of giving and taking is surprisingly complex. 
It's extraordinary the way that people are. The more we learn, the less we
know...Because the more we discover, the more we ask questions, the more we realize
how little we really know. 

So you give him to me until I love him, and then you take him away? This isn't fair.
My heart is broken. Why would you want to break my heart? I don't understand! But I
trust you. I'm a little angry, but I'll release my anger. I'll trust you. Just don't
let me down. I know you won't. 

You know you aren't ready. 

I know, I know. I'm not ready for anyone... I'm so unhealthy. Can my brokenness ever
be made whole? Everyone only points out my flaws, I fear I am beyond repair. 

And truthfully, he isn't ready either. Maybe I can have him back when we're both a
little healthier. So...yes, take him. I trust you. 

It still hurts, tho. 

But you'll help me. You always do. 

I love you...

It hurts me to realize how much you love me. I can't always see past my feelings.
Forgive me for my anger.. and my ignorance.. 


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