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Friday, 16 September 2011
10:57:52 PM (GMT)
All of them. All three. They hate me.
I want so badly to run away. I know where I'll go; I have the location saved on
google maps. I know how I'll get there, what to bring... just don't know what time
I'll go. But I want to go.
I'm not good enough for them.
I'm the worst mistake they've ever made. They're right. I do suck.
And then the other three.
You make me smile.
On the outside.
Inside, I'm deteriorating.
I wanted to kiss you. Wierdest urge I've ever felt. All three. I hate myself for it.
Fuck fuck fuck.
So if you don't want to be my friends because of my fucked up ways, I completely
understand. I won't ever let myself let you go, but if it's what has to be done, I'll
go through it. If you wish.
And if you don't want me to be part of the family any more, just say the word; though
I'm sure you've said it millions of times without using those words. as a matter of
fact, you have. You'd be better off without me. That's all I want. Is for all six of
you to be better off. 
Fuck. Disregard everything. I'm just insane. Especially siince my backyard happened.
Just ignore this dumbass rant. I'll never sleep again.


Kablammo_Dude says:   16 September 2011   460040  
I hope everything is okay 
‹~(Shaywee)~› says:   16 September 2011   304818  
As do I. 
Kablammo_Dude says:   17 September 2011   892543  
It all will be, with time. Time is often the biggest obstacle,
Just live your life, fuck the people that don't care about you.
One day you can shove it all in their face  
‹GeeWhiz!› says:   17 September 2011   356455  
I can get this (almost, I get kinda' lost at some parts.). But, Shay,
don't be worried about so much stuff at once. We all need to chill out
about everything. And if your Aunts ever too far come here. We'll be
here to take you in, you know that. So, please be ok. <3
‹~(Shaywee)~› says:   17 September 2011   987063  
WEEEE. "Bitch, TAKE IT BACK. It wasn't worth my time." *punches dad in
the mouth*
Hm. What, am I supposed to schedule it all out? "Monday, be concerned
about homewrok and projects I forgot to do over the weekend. Tuesday,
wonder if I have to be the one to cook dinner again. Wednesday is
reserved for various problems that always happen on Wednesdays..."
What does that even mean? Lol.
I know, I just always feel weird inviting myself to peoples houses
like that. 
‹GeeWhiz!› says:   17 September 2011   809106  
you shouldn't. My mum loves you. xP And I mean, relax. You see things
and blow them out of proportion. 
‹~(Shaywee)~› says:   17 September 2011   504761  
But still! I've been brought up not to do that. D: Even so, if I went
anywhere, especially out to Spencer, my parents would make me move
out. No doubt. 
‹Green Spring Grass› says:   18 September 2011   112064  
‹~(Shaywee)~› says :   18 September 2011   170806  

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