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Wednesday, 10 November 2010
11:38:24 PM (GMT)
It's a vicious circle: I feel down, I get tense and feel like an emo about it, I
worry I'm too self absorbed, I feel down, I get tense...
Whenever I feel down, I always tell myself how lucky I am and how much I've got. Then
I realise that's smug (even though this is the first time I've devulged this to
anyone) and have myself. I honestly hate how I hate myself, because it makes me feel
like I'm attention-seeking. I wonder how anyone can be around me. I'm an annoying
poseur. I'm in love with a guy I try to force myself into believe is nasty, who is
probably nice, but actually nasty. Anytime I think about how screwed up I am, I think
I'm an emo and try not to think about it. I'm concieted. Don't argue. I just don't
tell anyone thoughts I think are big-headed. Which brings me to my next point. I
always think anyone I'm talking to thinks I'm big-headed and self-absorbed. They must
think I talk about myself too much. If someone seems weird, I'll instantly assume it
has something to do with me.
I'd steal from my own affiliates, I'm disgusting.
I'm scared if I take things seriously I'll get hurt or look like a poseur.
Only 2 people actually love me, and I think about 10 people would actually care if I
died.
I'm a lazy person.
I don't like hanging out with Martin anymore, cause I'm big-headed and want to hang
out with Aidan and Scott etc., but i'm afraid they think I'm annoying. I have how I
discount and mock every feeling and thought I have. No one will actually read this
diary. Don't make this popular. Please don't like me. I'm disgusting.
Last edited: 11 November 2010

Comments 
‹WeaponFace♥› says:   11 November 2010   751982  

I'm not really good with advice or anything...
But, you're a real funny person! And, I'm big-headed. Believe
me. =4=
We all get down once in a while...
But, yeah. Don't worry about it. You're awesome.
 
‹CaptainLlama~› says:   11 November 2010   185250  
OH, MOIRA. YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE WHO SEES YOU LIKE THAT.
YOU ARE MARVELLOUS MOIRA AND MORE PEOPLE LOVE YOU THAN YOU REALISE.
>8C
HECK, IF I DIDN'T LOVE YOU, WE WOULD NOT HAVE SO MANY WONDERFUL
CHILDREN TOGETHER.
YOU ARE WONDERFUL.
AND PROBABLY ON YOUR PERIOD.
And what's wrong with Martin? ;_;
 
‹CaptainLlama~› says:   11 November 2010   132145  
RACHEL IS VERY BIGHEADED.
 
‹Moi→Nerd is in Despair› says:   11 November 2010   853329  
@RetroBaby 
Thanks =3= 
@Marmite 
YOUR PENIS IS BIG HEADED. 
 
‹CaptainLlama~› says:   11 November 2010   941849  
@KawaiiKoneko 
NOT JUST BIG HEADED.
BIG BALLED, TOO. 
 
‹Moi→Nerd is in Despair› says:   11 November 2010   304342  
@Marmite 
BIG-PEAR. 
 
‹CaptainLlama~› says:   11 November 2010   459525  
YEAH.
 
yaoicaekdesu says:   11 November 2010   474847  
MOIRA, YOU SD FANSDFAS.D
YOU MADE ME REGRET OUT ENGAGEMENT. >8C
 
‹Moi→Nerd is in Despair› says:   11 November 2010   641681  
@yaoicaekdesu 
I NEED A WOMAN IN MAI RAIFU. YU TU MANRI. 
 
yaoicaekdesu says:   11 November 2010   710596  
@KawaiiKoneko 
WELL, I DON'T WANNA GET INTO YOU RAIFU. KUSUKUSUKUSU 
 
‹Moi→Nerd is in Despair› says :   12 November 2010   592946  
@yaoicaekdesu 
ATTO RIISTO IITO SAMU NUDARUSO. 
 

 
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