Wednesday, 3 November 2010
06:08:52 PM (GMT)
I don't even know why I
opened the diary page but NO MATTER, I'll write while I am here.
I astonish myself with my ability to get over things so quickly. Although I'm not
over it as such, I was expecting it for a while and it's horrid and yet still I'm
worried I won't give up but whatever, I'll have to give up. I'm being angry instead
of sad and apparently anger brings out a ream of creativity which I can't achieve
through anything else C:. It's lovely, I just ran around my house in my underwear
takin' photos. I just taught myself to play a chord on the guitar as well so maybe
shite things happening isn't so shite if I learn to play the guitar and by default
become a bad ass mothafucka.
I had a massive break down last night and cried and talked to Joe and then received
horrid news on top of that so today I just felt kind of blankity blank like a white
board or a blanket. But now I don't have to wake up happy and then be crushed by
unhappiness and fee-yuh so okay okay it'll eventually be a good thing. It's occurin'
at the wrong time but whatever, other things shall occur at later points in time.
Hooo I love being so optimistic, I'd never go outside if I wasn't.
Why am I writing this instead of planning a novel though? Why would I keep putting
I hate school because it makes me eat normally again. Oh oh, and I got hit on by a
lad in my form today hahaha. He's really weird and nice but not my type at all and
I'm always just angry and rude when I'm around him so I have no idea why he's tryin'
to get with me but oh it's ironically flattering.
Webcomics are the best method of recovery for anything. They're gr8 when you're
sittin' up waiting for something or waiting for nothing too. They're gr8 when you're
pissed off and when you're only mildly annoyed at everyone. I luv webcomics, QC
is basically a giant tissue that makes
me stop crying when everything is shit.