Saturday, 28 November 2009
02:56:23 AM (GMT)
It's snowing. Today, nearly all day, it's like Christmas snow, soft and
flakie, yet wet and slushie.
I feel like a little child, when I stepped outside today, I stood and stared in
amazement at how beautiful it was. How captivating and alluring it was.
Being outside in my sneakers and sweater I felt like a little girl. A little girl who
would beg her mother to let her outside, but couldn't because she would refuse to
wear her boots and jacket.
I remember once my mom was yelling at me because I wouldn't leave her alone, then
when she finally fell asleep I ran outside and rolled in teh snow. Right there in my
nightgown. My dad came home early that night and threw a snowball at me. We played
for hours outside that night. My mom scolded us because we both got sick.
But it was all worth it. I just wish things weren't so tough now, that we weren't
always fighting and that there was time for family things like that. I should just
give up, I mean, for a family like mine it's impossible.
My parents have even canceled Christmas because of financial difficulties. So, now I
feel guilty because my little brother won't know what it's like to really have a
great Christmas, filled with family because we aren't visiting any family and no one
is coming to us.
My uncle is making my grandma go spend it with him and his mean wife, not to mention
her only (slightly) spoiled kids. She isn't too thrilled, and said she wishes she
could take us all. But she can't.
So we'll stay here, run teh store and have a simple taco supper.
Oh, sorry for the random diary entry, I just felt so thrilled about the snow, I
needed to write something but I didn't know how.. and I started babbling, Sorry,
please, please don't hate me. xD;