Thursday, 27 November 2008
06:46:32 AM (GMT)
everyone thinks im depressed for "no reason".
When they ask me "do you really have a reason?"
I say nothing but what i want to really say
Fuck yea , i have a reason!"
A reason that people will hate me (not like they already do)
and people think i am Emo or Goth or Scene, maybe i am
but screw all (not all) of them, also
i cant say anything without saying the wrong thing and having
more people hating me!! There is too many problems in my life
And i dont give a fuck anymore what you say or think about me!
if you think im stupid or weird or retarded or a bitch i dont care!
I JUST WANT TO BE ME OK!?
but there is also a problem with that
there are some fuckers that think they can use me
or mess with me, or even feel sorry for me, cause they are stupid
most consider them my "friends", and i dont like them ok?
also all the dads in our family has screwed us over
we have 2 step-whatever- for and they act like dads nto step
my dad probebly doesnt like me, doesnt love or hate me.
I dont want to cause a scene
Also i hate it when people say "your bringing me down"
or "i know how you feel"
cause 1. they make me feel worse about me "bringing them down"
and 2. you dont know how i feel, you think you do but you dont
ok? At least in my school life i have friends like
haleigh, celeste, gabi, angel, mason, connor, rae rae, and some others
are there for me.
even if they dont consider me as a best friend or a good friend
whoa........im feeling better
is there anyone out there for me? huh??
ian broke my heart
anthony doesnt give a shit
and all my other crushes go in and out of my system.
acting.........oh i am a wonderful actress, i just dont want to admit it
because i feel self centered, and i always find someone "better" that me.
i dont sing, cause i cant hit notes right
and i say i am pretty good, but people tell me otherwise
and i am sooo boring, i cant make anyone laugh.
but i try to be myself at school
but i am ashamed of who i really am.
and i want to hang out with the people that i want to hang out with
but i feel like im interfering with them and their friends
and i am always left out, its not fun.
and i have a replacement at school, so if i moved she would be
the new and better me, since everyone likes her.
and i am over stressed with school!
and i hate the way i look!!!
i guess thats it for now.....so bye
Last edited: 27 November 2008
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