Tuesday, 25 December 2007
11:08:50 PM (GMT)
i feel as though im trapped in some chaotic hazy world where nothing makes sense
because nothing is considered to be of related thinking in my mind......what does
that make me....depressed....a pshycho.....ADD....or just normal?...
is it time for someone to come and give me my medications yet billie??
no, not yet.do you like taking them?
its not my disicion to make if i like taking them or not....they force me too....and
if i dont..well....i havent ever refused....the big male nurse scares me when we
looks at me so i dont want to disobey them
do i scare you?
well something scares me.....having someone being the death of me....being so hung up
on something or someone and they break me into a million pieces and and mop the floor
with my blood....this scares the living hell out of me....
ever had such a bad that you just wanted to take a blunt object to you
temples.....ya?...well lately everyday has been like that....i have realized that he
is never going to miss me the way i miss him....its kills me inside to admit this but
it has to be done for me to be able to get over him.....he was unique.....more than
me and we fit together like the last piece of a jig-saw puzzle...but no....even with
all of that going for us there had to be that pesky problem....we were worried about
that to begin with but no...no....he didnt stop himself....but i couldnt stop myself
we will just have to wait until later to find out what happens.....will the feelings
we have hold us together or pull us apart.....can i ever be his firefly??will he ever
take my hand again??