Saturday, 25 August 2007
10:39:36 PM (GMT)
Well i talked to my ex today. She seemed very calm. unlike me who can barly stop
thinking about her. She talked about Joey and everything and that made me feel like i
had been forgotten. Out of her life forever. Which remined me i wanted a time machine
to go back a year and stop myself from saying anything stupid to her. I felt really
stupid while on the phone with her. I told her that i wouldn't hate JOey; just
dislike him, and be jealous of him. She had told me that Joey thought they were
together. That made me cry. She knew how much i love her ut she went on not knowing
about the tears i was shedding. I was about to try to forget her but i remembered my
quote. "A man who trys to forget about a woman never loved her" I wanted to forget
about her so badly' but i want to be with her again. Whenever i talk to her. or when
im near her; my heart starts to beat fast. I said i'd help her ask Joey out.
But..But... i don't want to. The thoughts if her with another guy? To painful. She
hasn't been with anyone scince we broke up but she only likes me as a friend. I have
to except that. I want to be near her but she has to live hundreds of miles away. I
need her in my life. After college (which is in about 10 years or so) Our friends and
us are going to Hawii. Hope she doesn't bring Joey. I said if i didn't go to Hawaii
it was either 1 of two things. A. COuldn't afford it. B. Died b4 colleg or C. Just
didn't want to go. If B really happened i told her that she probably wouldn't come to
my funeral. If she did she'd probably bring JOey. JOey, Joey, Joey. So sick of his
name. My friends say to get on with my life but i can't. SHe can easily. She could
probably forget about me in a heartbeat. Trade all of those memories of me for Joey.
She'll probalby read this but i don't care. She should know how i feel.