Silenced The Lamb
 
 
Tears run gently down my face
My beauty I fear is an utter disgrace
Overwhelming, consuming fear
Erase my soul from these years
 
Thoughts of you shall fill my head
As I lay awake in bed
Nobody to heal these gaping wounds
My body soon will  feel the swoon
Silenced The Lamb
 
 
Tears run gently down my face
My beauty I fear is an utter disgrace
Overwhelming, consuming fear
Erase my soul from these years
 
Thoughts of you shall fill my head
As I lay awake in bed
Nobody to heal these gaping wounds
My body soon will  feel the swoon
 
The rapture soon shall come along
In my head I hear your song
Upon that day I await to come
I shall not shy away from
 
Memories defeated of meaning echo
As I slowly start to fade
Disappear to hide from sight
As I know my beauty you fight
 
Disappointed in the truth
I hold back as I sleuth
Feeling no emotion within
As I'm numbing from bleeding skin
 
Your silence deafening
It kills me to know
That when you went you left a whole
Open wound spewing crimson
I pleaded with you to listen
 
So my beauty I cut deep
Making sure this will lay me to sleep
Forever now I'm gone at last
I will escape your loving grasp
 
Silenced the lamb you have done
This fate You've created can not be undone
For once my heart no longer beats
I give my life in defeat
 
I'll cut my heart from my chest
And give it to you as your final request
Down I fall to my grave
Below the cold earth I rot away
 
Just to prove how much you mean
I take my own life for you to remain serene
Giving in with no regret
Who I was you soon forget
 
Here I lay dead and cold
Buried within this shallow hole
And here I shall remain without a soul
For the one thing you took, my heart you stole
I can not live without your love like crystalline snow

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1. When did you join Kupika?
on this account  january 28th 07 i think

2. How did you find this wonderful place?
My best friend told me

3. Who was your first friend evar?
on here? I think RaverAlchemist

4. Do you still talk to them?
No they quit

1. When did you join Kupika?
on this account  january 28th 07 i think

2. How did you find this wonderful place?
My best friend told me

3. Who was your first friend evar?
on here? I think RaverAlchemist

4. Do you still talk to them?
No they quit

5. Do you have more friends of the same or opposite sex?
Same. Definitely. 
I unno why. xD

6. Has anyone ever sent you VI?
Yea many surprizingly

7. Who, and what?
Well I have at least one of ever VI now so....

8. Do you make a lot of Kupipages?
Not anymore

9. How many diary entries have you written?
28. Or 29, including this :D

10. Do you repost chains?
(Not including surveys like these. ) then no

11. Do you belong to a certain clique, or mingle?
not really

12. Do you draw on oekaki often?
every now and then, less than i did before

13. Do you have pictures of yourself up?
just two, i'd rather remain mysterious

14. What's your favorite part of Kupika?
the friends

15. Least favorite?
lol the people

16. Lastly, how many Kupipoints do you posses?
865, had more but birthdays come up and kps are good gifts

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Ok i dont know why so many random people on here think im a guy but IM NOT A GUY
DANG IT.
STOP ASKING IF I AM.
Jeez if you want to know if im a guy look on my profile. its not that hard. Jeez if
your to lazy to do that
well dont bother asking me such a dumb question. it oly tells me that your lazy, and
it waste my time.
Heck my avi wears a shirt.
HOW MANY GUYS WEAR SKIRTS?
yeah short rant, but thought i'll clear things up.

I finally seen twilight last night.
I went with some of my moms friends she works with.
I had a lot of fun. The movie was great. I loved it!
But I must say the book is much better.
But its still really cool to see bella and edward come to life.
Anyways if you haven't seen the movie you really need too.
And if you haven't read the book, then you really should cause your missing out.

Yeah so Halloween was friday, and it's monday, so what if its a few days after the
holiday.
Anyways, as most of you already know Halloween is my most favorite holiday of all
time. Yeah well this year it was crap.
So first I decided I'd go with my friend trick or treating. Yeah i'm 15 and still
act like im 5 so what, I'm happy acting younger than myself. (if only i could look
younger) lol anyways so i was gonna be a vampire but my friends mom was like "No
thats a scary creature, that would be disrespectful to the churchs." Come on i seen
a dude in full gothic clothes and make up at one of the churches and nobody had
problem with him. Heck he looked like i normally do everyday, yet my vampire costume
was nothing more than a floral looking corset, and black skirt and corset boots. NO
FANGS NO CAPE NO SHIT! Then get this my friend sister went as a goth. HECK ON THE
Yeah so Halloween was friday, and it's monday, so what if its a few days after the
holiday.
Anyways, as most of you already know Halloween is my most favorite holiday of all
time. Yeah well this year it was crap.
So first I decided I'd go with my friend trick or treating. Yeah i'm 15 and still
act like im 5 so what, I'm happy acting younger than myself. (if only i could look
younger) lol anyways so i was gonna be a vampire but my friends mom was like "No
thats a scary creature, that would be disrespectful to the churchs." Come on i seen
a dude in full gothic clothes and make up at one of the churches and nobody had
problem with him. Heck he looked like i normally do everyday, yet my vampire costume
was nothing more than a floral looking corset, and black skirt and corset boots. NO
FANGS NO CAPE NO SHIT! Then get this my friend sister went as a goth. HECK ON THE
ONE NIGHT I COULD GO AROUND LOOKING NORMAL I CANT BECAUSE EVERYBODY WANTS ME TO
CHANGE FOR THEM SMF! That's why next year i'm NOT doing anything with my friend for
halloween. I like halloween to much for her and her family to make me change my
apperance to please them. If you cant see past my clothes and shit and see who i
really am your not worth my time.
then it sucked cuz we got started late so we got little candy. then when i got home
my idiot father was drunk and i went to get on the computer and he started playing
some stuff old country crap, so went i finally got on I went to youtube and started
playing Slipknot-Spit it out to piss him off and boy did it work. If he can play his
crap i'll play mine so there!
he should know better than to mess with me. So i was already pissed as it was and my
dad keep getting pissed, but i was so SICK of having people tell me what to do and
always having to change, and please people while my feelings go ingore i finally
gave up, and normally i wouldn't have done anything but tune the music done and hold
my emotions in so nobody would know what i'm thinking or feeling but finally i gave
in and i was ready to give him a taste of his own medicine. So i got up and i throw
everything on his desk thingie in the floor, I broke the headphone's we have, and
after that i was so pissed i didn't say a word, I just walked off to our other
house.
It feels good to show emotion sometimes.

Anyways new doggie. so we have a drop off and it looks like a scottie. it's little
and black very scruffy, and small, and super cute, but i dont want to keep it. We
already have two dogs and three is two many for me. besides it doesn't like Oscar
all that much, but my mom is to lazy to take it to the pound, and i'm to afraid to
drive with all with weird reckless freaks on the roads these days so i am stuck with
it till somebody can get off they're lazy but and do something around here. Anyways
new doggie, so i guess if its gonna say here it needs a name. I want to call it
church, but my mom wants to call it Earl. so idk. so anyways had a bad weekend aint
getting any better so there ya go.

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Dear 007Wild

I don't really know how to tell you this, but I dislike you. I think I
realized it When I threw up in your apartment and I saw you insult My avocado
plant.
I'm sure you're senile enough to understand That your Honda sucks.
I'm returning Your contact book to you, but I'll keep Your criminal record
as a memory. You should also know that I will tell the authorities about our
friendship.

Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Lana
Dear 007Wild

I don't really know how to tell you this, but I dislike you. I think I
realized it When I threw up in your apartment and I saw you insult My avocado
plant.
I'm sure you're senile enough to understand That your Honda sucks.
I'm returning Your contact book to you, but I'll keep Your criminal record
as a memory. You should also know that I will tell the authorities about our
friendship.

Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Lana


I tag...
007wild
FuzzyElmoo
InuYasha885
Eeyore2008



RULES:
Do the "Letter MEME". Tag no less than 5 other people, and leave them a comment,
informing them that they have been tagged. Then copy the "How-to" Letter Meme, and
finish your Journal entry.

-> How you do the Letter Meme:

Dear (the last person who left a comment on your journal):

I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it
___2___
___3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand
___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You
should
also know that I ___10___ ___11___ .

___12___,
-Your name-

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister


2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes


3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kabob - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife


4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out


5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk


6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed


7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks


8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service


9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college


10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked


11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics


12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

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Read the following questions, imagining the scenes in your mind, and write down the
first thing that you visualize. Do not think about the questions excessively. This
is a relational psychology test and the answers given to the questions have been
shown to have a relevance to values and ideals that we hold in our personal lives.

1. You are walking in the woods. Who are you walking with? 
Nobody

2. You are walking in the woods. You see an animal. What kind of animal is it? 
Bird

3. What interaction takes place between you and the animal? 
Read the following questions, imagining the scenes in your mind, and write down the
first thing that you visualize. Do not think about the questions excessively. This
is a relational psychology test and the answers given to the questions have been
shown to have a relevance to values and ideals that we hold in our personal lives.

1. You are walking in the woods. Who are you walking with? 
Nobody

2. You are walking in the woods. You see an animal. What kind of animal is it? 
Bird

3. What interaction takes place between you and the animal? 
The bird cherps then flys away

4. You walk deeper into the woods. You enter a clearing and before you is your
dream
house. Describe its size. 
2 Story Log Caben

5. Is your dream house surrounded by a fence? 
Nope

6. You enter the house. You walk to the dining area and see the dining room table.
Describe what you see on and around the table. 
Red cloth place mats. White dinner plates  and A large lit candle as the center
peace. 
7. You exit the house through the back door. Lying in the grass is a cup. What
material is the cup made of (ceramic, glass, paper, etc.)? 
Plastic xD

8. What do you do with the cup? 
Let it lay there

9. You walk to the edge of the property, where you find yourself standing at the
edge of body of water. What type of body of water is it (creek, river, ocean,
etc...) 
Small Creek Leading to a large pond with a small water fall

10. How will you cross the water? 
I dont I just stand and look at the water

Analysis
 


1. The person you are walking with is the most important person in your life. 
Me? NO WAY!
 

2. The size of the animal is representative of your perception of the size of your
problems. 
 Small... that's good.

3. The severity of the interaction you have with the animal is representative of
how
you deal with your problems (passive, aggressive). 
 Really?

4. The size of your dream home is representative of the size of your ambition to
resolve your problems. 
 That's not totally the best answer

5. No fence is indicative of an open personality. People are welcome at all times.
The presence of a fence is more indicative of a closed personality. You would
prefer
people to not drop by unannounced. 
 So I can be open

6. If your answer did not include food, people, or flowers then you are generally
unhappy. 
 No food, No people, (excluding Me) and no Flowers. Should Expain Someone.

7. The durability of the material with which the cup is made is representative of
the perceived durability of your relationship with, the person from number 1. For
example, Styrofoam, plastic, and paper are disposable; Styrofoam, paper, and glass
(ceramics) are not durable; and metal and plastic are durable. 
 Well i guess im not too durable with Myself

8. Your disposition of the cup is representative of your attitude toward the person
in number 1. 
 So I just let myself lay there?

9. The size of the body of water is representative of the size of your sexual
desire. 
 ......Interesting 

10. How wet you get in crossing the water is indicative of the relative importance
of your sex life.
I dont get wet so sex isnt important to me

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