hey guys......ok tell me what you think of this ok? im in this situatuion with this
guy and idk what to do anymore....

  Ok so its not the same guy for those of you who read my previous entry lol.....so
anyways me and this guy who will remain nameless lol we are good friends and we talk
all the time or we used to. I feel really comfortabled around him which isnt really
normal for me because I get super nervous around guys that I like! anyways so I
really like this guy and when I'm with him I feel like my problems dissolve and
nothing else matter but me and him. We talk about the most random stuff but it makes
me laugh and after being with him I feel a whole lot better then before I talked to
him. He;s always o my mind like 24/7 even when I'm not with him and he gives me
butterflies whenever I see him!!. I know or at least I thought he liked me
hey guys......ok tell me what you think of this ok? im in this situatuion with this
guy and idk what to do anymore....

  Ok so its not the same guy for those of you who read my previous entry lol.....so
anyways me and this guy who will remain nameless lol we are good friends and we talk
all the time or we used to. I feel really comfortabled around him which isnt really
normal for me because I get super nervous around guys that I like! anyways so I
really like this guy and when I'm with him I feel like my problems dissolve and
nothing else matter but me and him. We talk about the most random stuff but it makes
me laugh and after being with him I feel a whole lot better then before I talked to
him. He;s always o my mind like 24/7 even when I'm not with him and he gives me
butterflies whenever I see him!!. I know or at least I thought he liked me
too.....he would text me things like your beautiful and like I miss you and stuff
like that. So anyways I would continue to flirt back but I never understood why he
had never asked me out before if he feels like this towards me. apperantly I give
him this magical feeeling. Anyways so my best friend who also will remain nameless
texted him for me to help me out so we could find out why he hadnt asked me out if
we were obviously flirting with eachother and HARD!. Anyways so she told me that he
has a girlfriend that he supposedly loves and is wanting to marry later on in
life.....(yes its that serious!). Anyways here is where u guys come in.....What
should I do? I mean If he has a girlfriend that he loves and wants to marry then why
is he texting me things like he thinks I'm beautiful and that he misses me? I just
dont know what to do anymore! O yeah and annother thing we were up late till like 1
in the morning  texting one night and he asked me a question and it was "If you
could have sex with anyone on your phone who would it be?"(yes I am a virgin) so I
answered truthfully and I told him that it would be him...then he texts me back and
is like "truthfully I would choose you also" 
 You guys I dont know what to make of all this? I mean if he ahs a girlfriend why is
he doing all of this and if you love your girlfriend so much you want to marry her
then why didnt you say you would choose to have sex with her instead of me? HELP!!!
whats up with it? I need opinions people!!! lol

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Hey guys, 
    Ok so I need help again lol....Ok so I have a boyfriend and he lives in richmond
and Im in berkeley we dont get to see eachother at all really because of our really
busy schedules.....so there's this guy at MY School and he's awsome and really
really cute kinda looks like ron weasley from harry potter!!!! lol but the thing is
he has a girlfriend but idk how much he's happy with her cuz whenever she isnt with
him and I happen to be around he stares at me and when I look at him he looks
away....and yesterday at lunch I went to the bathroom with my friend and when I came
out he was outside the bathroom waiting for his gf and he smiled at me first!!! lol
and I was so nervouse I smiled and walked away lol.....STUPID ME!!! lol anyways what
should I do??? 

Hey guys, 
    Ok so I need help again lol....Ok so I have a boyfriend and he lives in richmond
and Im in berkeley we dont get to see eachother at all really because of our really
busy schedules.....so there's this guy at MY School and he's awsome and really
really cute kinda looks like ron weasley from harry potter!!!! lol but the thing is
he has a girlfriend but idk how much he's happy with her cuz whenever she isnt with
him and I happen to be around he stares at me and when I look at him he looks
away....and yesterday at lunch I went to the bathroom with my friend and when I came
out he was outside the bathroom waiting for his gf and he smiled at me first!!! lol
and I was so nervouse I smiled and walked away lol.....STUPID ME!!! lol anyways what
should I do??? 

   I have this amazing boyfriend and this amazing guy who I think really likes me
like I like him!!!????? HELP!!!

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hey people reading this, 
          This week has been so crazy!!! lol I mean thursday my dog died and that
really sucked and hurt alot and i went to school the next day acting like everything
was ok when it  really wasnt and i was spaced out in all my classes. Then like my dad
who died his b-day was feburary 1st so that was depressing. Yesterday I skipped the
last period with my friend Bianca and my friend Or and their friend Nick and NIck is
really cute lol i was going to flirt but i didnt cuz I could tell they liked
eachother. A few minutes ago my Bianca one of my best friends IMed me and was like
OMG OMG OMG GUESS WHAT!!! and i was like WHAT? and she was like Nick asked me out
and I said yes!!! and I am trully happy for her!!! here is where i need you guys
help...

hey people reading this, 
          This week has been so crazy!!! lol I mean thursday my dog died and that
really sucked and hurt alot and i went to school the next day acting like everything
was ok when it  really wasnt and i was spaced out in all my classes. Then like my dad
who died his b-day was feburary 1st so that was depressing. Yesterday I skipped the
last period with my friend Bianca and my friend Or and their friend Nick and NIck is
really cute lol i was going to flirt but i didnt cuz I could tell they liked
eachother. A few minutes ago my Bianca one of my best friends IMed me and was like
OMG OMG OMG GUESS WHAT!!! and i was like WHAT? and she was like Nick asked me out
and I said yes!!! and I am trully happy for her!!! here is where i need you guys
help...

 I am really happy for her I trully am....I havent had the best luck with guys IDK
why....its like I like a guy and they NEVER like me back its sooo friggin
annoying!!! and its like WTF!!! whats wrong with me?? and IDK....the guys that like
me are like short and not my type ya know??? and so my question is: Do you guys
think im a horrible friend for being jelous of my BEST FRIENDS happiness?? I need
help you guys so plz plz plz comment!!!! lol

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Chapter 1

    In the county of Kentucky there was a girl named Anya and she was turning 18in
January. She has brown hair just passed the shoulders and cream white skin with eyes
as blue as the ocean and tiny freckles all around her nose. She has a rather big
chest and has a hard time buying pants because of her height which is 5’4 and she
could wear anything because she is slender. Anya ever since she was little wanted to
be a fashion designer
 and every time she would mention that dream to her parents they would say” your
not smart enough and that she could never do it” Anya always took it to heart and
pushed the hurt deep down inside so as to not show the pain to her foster parents. 
When Anya was adopted her little sister was adopted to the same family.
Chapter 1

    In the county of Kentucky there was a girl named Anya and she was turning 18in
January. She has brown hair just passed the shoulders and cream white skin with eyes
as blue as the ocean and tiny freckles all around her nose. She has a rather big
chest and has a hard time buying pants because of her height which is 5’4 and she
could wear anything because she is slender. Anya ever since she was little wanted to
be a fashion designer
 and every time she would mention that dream to her parents they would say” your
not smart enough and that she could never do it” Anya always took it to heart and
pushed the hurt deep down inside so as to not show the pain to her foster parents. 
When Anya was adopted her little sister was adopted to the same family.

  Syrah is Anya’s little sister Syrah is 17 years old and has short brown to her
neck. Syrah has cream white skin also and she deep blue eyes. Syrah always talked to
her sister about what she wanted to be when she got older Syrah said she wanted to be
a hair dresser and eventually open up her own shop. Whenever she told her parent her
dream they said “why you can’t think without your sister so how can you be a
hair dresser” she told them you’re probably right and went to her and her
sister’s room. That night when Anya came into the room after her shower Syrah
asked her sister “Am I smart enough to be in the hair field?” And Anya said
“yes and who told you otherwise?” Deflated feeling Syrah replied “mom and dad
said that I can’t think without you or stick up for myself without you so I cant
be in the hair field” and when she heard that Anya sat on the edge of Syrah’s
bed and told her “Little sister you can do whatever you want to do and you are
smart enough” “thanks I appreciate it good night” Syrah said contently. 

  When Anya’s got into her room she went onto the computer and looked at flight
schedules to New York. She was determined to get her and her sister out of this hell
hole and into a better life and school.  The next morning before syrah left for
school Anya gave Syrah the information on the flight schedules and told Syrah.
“Hey I got these flight schedules to From Kentucky to New York so pick a good time
then give them back to me ok?” “Yeah I will get it back to you probably
tonight” Syrah said before rushing out the house. That evening while Anya was
doing her homework in the room her and Syrah shared Syrah walked in and handed her
the sheet with the ten o clock flight schedule circled. “Now what?” “Well come
here” Anya said while walking to the computer.  Anya pulled up the school website
and showed Syrah information on the private art school that they were trying to
transfer in. The high school was located in downtown New York. Anya and Syrah found
the special applications they had to fill out and mail to officially transfer form
their current school Oaks High to Fredrick’s school of art. Anya printed out to
copies and gave on to Syrah then she deleted the history on the computer just in
case their mother or father checked their computer.  Then they both looked over the
applications and suddenly Anya panicked “Syrah how are we gonna get our birth
records? The application says we need it but mom and dad will never give it to
us.” 
“Don’t worry Anya remember mom and dad always take time to give things to the
neighbors every night like sweets and stuff?” “Yeah…. So while they are at the
neighbors we can sneak in dads’ office and get the records. “Exactly so all we
have to do is be patient.” After about ten minutes they heard the door slam and
they knew that they had went over to the neighbors. “Come on Syrah you keep watch
and I’ll go in and find them O.K?”  “Yeah alright lest just hurry up and go
before they come back” Syrah said nervously.  They walked across the hall and Anya
ran into the office going straight for the file cabinets were she first saw him ever
put the records. After a whole ten minutes she found hers and Syrahs Anya put
everything back how it was and then they left before their mother and father came. 
Hurriedly they put all the information they needed from the birth records down on to
the application then Syrah ran and put the files back into the office all before they
ever found out. After a few hours both girls filled out all of the application and
were ready to mail it in the next day on their way to school.

  Anya couldn’t pay attention in school because all she could think about was that
she had actually mailed in the transfer applications and that they were really
getting out of that disastrous house.  Anya also knew that they had a lot to do
before the applications came. They had to find a very very cheap apartment to rent
and then get jobs near by the school. Meanwhile Syrah was in her classroom thinking
about the same things but she was also thinking about the money that she had but in
the bank when she was twelve. She thought “Maybe I can somehow transfer the money
from that account to a bank account in New York and make it a joint account so Anya
had access to it also. For both Anya and Syrah the day went by really slow but as
soon as the bell rang to let out sixth period both girls rushed home to tell the
other what they had been thinking. Both girls rushed into the room and they both
started talking real fast trying to get their ideas out. I’ll go first Anya said
“I was thinking that if we get in we need to find jobs and a very very cheap
apartment.” “Yeah I know and I remembered that I started a bank account when I
was twelve remember that?” “Yeah I do I remember” Anya said excitedly. “So I
was thinking is there a way that I can transfer that money to a bank account in New
York and make it a joint bank account.?” “Yeah I think there is, we probably
need to make a run to the bank to check that out” “Alright lets go” Syrah said
in a rushed voice.  Anya and Syrah were two steps away form the door when their
mothers screechy voice came form the kitchen “Girls where do you think your
going?” “Umm… we are going to” Anya and Syrah frantically looked at each
other thinking of an excuse.  Finally Syrah spoke up “We are going to the park mom
I think I left something on the bench the other day and Anya’s coming with me”
“Alright but your asses better come straight back and no Lully gagging either.”
“Yeah we will” Anya said shortly and slightly irritated. 


   Once at the bank Anya and Syrah had to wait in a freakishly long line just to ask
a question. Syrah was looking around and noticed a lady getting ready to open so she
pulled Anya and raced to be the first one there. After twenty minutes Anya and Syrah
were in their bedroom with the information gained. They now knew for sure that they
could transfer the account and make it joint. Now all they were waiting on was the
letters confirming their transfer.  That day before school Anya told Syrah that the
letters should come today. Syrah was so excited and nervous that she could barely
pay attention in class. While in sixth period Syrah got a text from Anya and it read
“If we get in we pack and Leave tonight!!!” When she read that Syrah got even
more nervous than before and now she was completely unfocused for the rest of sixth
period. As soon as the bell rang to signal the end of school Syrah raced home and
into the room. Anya was already there waiting on the bed nervous. They sat on the
bed with their separate Letters and counted to three “1 2 3” and they opened the
letter at the same time. Their eyes quickly scanned the letter and nervously waited
for the other to finish. Once both of them were done Anya said nervously to Syrah
“and your’s said?” Syrah looked her sister dead in the eye and replied excited
“Anya I am getting outa here” then Syrah asked “and what does yours say?”
“We are both gettin the Hell outa here sis!!!” Anya said ecstatically.  Suddenly
Anya said in a hushed tone “We have to keep Quie…” just then there someone
knocked on the door Anya and Syrah quickly stuffed their letters under their pillows
and said in unison “come in” In came their father looking angrier than ever
“What is all the commotion in here?” Umm… Nothin dad we just were excited cuz
I aced my math test today.” Syrah explained. “Well keep it down damnt I’m
tryin to get some work done you know what smart people do?” “Yeah dad we will”
Anya said irritably she hated when her parents referred to her and Syrah as dumb
because it wasn’t right or fair. As soon as their dad left they jumped for joy
again. Later that evening while Syrah was doing homework Anya was reading over the
letters thoroughly and she said aloud to Syrah that they could transfer next week.
Syrah told Anya that they could leave anytime this week and they agreed on Thursday
because their parents went to bed quicker because they were always in a drunken
stupor. “Alright sis we would do that” 

 That evening before dinner their mom called Syrah into the loivingroom.
“How’s it going mom? 
“Honey we were thinkin…”
“What?” 
“Maybe we should send you off to another home”
When Syrah heard that her heart dropped “But….but….why?”
“We think that your sister is a bad influence on you.”
“She’s not though I promise she aint.”
“Well it’s already been arranged your set for tomorrow eveinin”
“Mom …. Don’t please…” 
“Sorry darlin that’s how its gotta be”
Syrah ran to the bedroom in tears.
When Anya saw her she asked Syrah “Syrah what’s wrong what did mom say?”
“She said that I was goin to be sent away to another foster home” Syrah said
crying heavily. 
“Oh my why are they doing that!!” Anya said clearly worried.
“She said you were a bad influence on me” 
“I cant I wont let that happen” 
“This is what were gonna do we got our acceptance letters right?”
“Yeah we did”
“We are leaving tonight if we stay longer we will be separated.”
“Alright let’s do it.”

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HEY PEOPLE JOIN MY DOLL CONTEST THERE IS A LIMIT OF 25 POEOPLE SO HURRY AND JOIN

on december 24 , 2006 at 8 ' o clock in the morning a 14 year old boy died by the
name of scott Jaskson  was found dead
  doctors couldent come up with the cuase of his death. His mother checked his
e-mails  to see if she could figure out wat happened. Turns out he was still signed
into myspace. She found out that he had gone to sleep after he read and dident
repost this chain letter about a little girl that kills you in your sleep with no
natural cause of death.

            this is the bulletin he read:


    My name is Jaime Heras , i'm 14 years old . I m a murder , i have no face , 
on december 24 , 2006 at 8 ' o clock in the morning a 14 year old boy died by the
name of scott Jaskson  was found dead
  doctors couldent come up with the cuase of his death. His mother checked his
e-mails  to see if she could figure out wat happened. Turns out he was still signed
into myspace. She found out that he had gone to sleep after he read and dident
repost this chain letter about a little girl that kills you in your sleep with no
natural cause of death.

            this is the bulletin he read:


    My name is Jaime Heras , i'm 14 years old . I m a murder , i have no face , 
when you look at me you will die immedietlly ,
you have 900 seconds to repost this or i willvisit you tonight

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Chapter2


     Friday came around and Katherine had agreed to watch Lea for her while she and
Kayla went out for a couple of hours. Ashley had put on her favorite pair of ripped
jeans and brown converse with a blue tank top.  She tied her hair in a bun and
looked at herself in the mirror and sighed. Ashley used to be so skinny and after
Lea it was a killer getting to be her normal weight again!!! While Ashley was
putting on strawberry lip gloss that she got from the dollar store like a month ago.
The bell rang and Ashley yelled “GOT IT” and ran to the door when she opened the
door it was James standing there looking nervous and shuffling his feet. Ashley was
speechless but curious as to what he wanted. Finally Ashley spoke up “what are you
Chapter2


     Friday came around and Katherine had agreed to watch Lea for her while she and
Kayla went out for a couple of hours. Ashley had put on her favorite pair of ripped
jeans and brown converse with a blue tank top.  She tied her hair in a bun and
looked at herself in the mirror and sighed. Ashley used to be so skinny and after
Lea it was a killer getting to be her normal weight again!!! While Ashley was
putting on strawberry lip gloss that she got from the dollar store like a month ago.
The bell rang and Ashley yelled “GOT IT” and ran to the door when she opened the
door it was James standing there looking nervous and shuffling his feet. Ashley was
speechless but curious as to what he wanted. Finally Ashley spoke up “what are you
doing here” she said coldly while stepping outside and closing the door.
“I….Just….I just wanted to see how Lea was doing” James said nervously. When
Claire heard that, she was taken aback but she stayed strong and kept going. “After
all these years why do you want to see her now?” Claire said getting a little
annoyed. “I…..I don’t know I just thought that it was time I saw her I
guess” James said sadly and scared. Ashley could feel her blood rising she was
getting really pissed off. “Now you want to see Lea after you practically rejected
her and me I don’t fucking think so” Claire said angrily. “Well I…. was just
trying to do something right for a change you know” James said a little loud.
“YOU HAD THE CHOICE TO DO SOMETHING RIGHT WHEN I TOLD YOU, SO DON’T TRY AND DO
RIGHT BY LEA NOW!!!” Claire said screaming. “I……” but before he could say
anymore Ashley cut him off screaming “GET THE FUCK OFF MY PORCH AND DON’T EVER
COME AROUND HERE AGAIN YOU FUCKING BITCH!!! Ashley sat down on the porch and cried
for everything until Lea called out “mommy come here please” when she heard that
she knew that she had to be strong for Lea and that she made the right decision.
Ashley said “coming baby hold on” she pulled herself together and walked
inside.


 “Hey Lea what’s wrong?” Claire said softly. “I want to watch spongebob
mommy” Lea said while sitting down on the couch. “O.K Lea” Ashley said so she
turned on the TV and kissed her daughter on the head while going into the room to
finish getting ready.  After ten minutes Kayla finally showed up and Ashley kissed
lea before leaving the house. First they went to the movie theater and saw “The
morning After” then they went out to lunch and just hung out at there usual
places. “So who’s new in your life Kayla?” Ashley said playfully but genuinely
interested. “Oh no one right now but there is this really cute guy in science
class” Kayla said sounding excited. “So what’s his name spill girl tell all”
Ashley said sounding pushy but interested. “His name is Jonathan and he is really
cute but I don’t know if I should go after him or not” Kayla said sounding
reluctant. “Well do you want some advice?” Ashley asked. “Yes please!!!”
Kayla replied sounding enthusiastic. “Well you should make friends with him and
talk to him find out as much as you can about him then go from there” Ashley said
confidently.  “Thanks for the advice I will totally try that and he’s my lab
partner so defiantly an advantage right?” Kayla said hopefully and now fully
excited. “OMG Kayla why didn’t u tell me that you could ask him to lunch and
even start a conversation with him sitting right next to you” Ashley said. “I am
going to do that Monday” Kayla said excited. “You better tell me all of what
happened.” Ashley replied happily. “Ooh I will” Kayla said.


   Ashley was feeling depressed so she decided to call Kayla because she was the
best person she could think of to listen to her problems and give her advice. So she
dialed Kayla’s number and after the fourth ring she picked up.

 “Hello” 

“Hey it’s Ashley” she said sounding sad.

“What’s wrong girl?” Kayla said sounding worried

“It’s just that I got to thinking about graduation and everyone going off to
college without me…” Suddenly Ashley couldn’t finish and started crying
lightly. “If only I hadn’t gotten smashed that day Kay I don’t know what to do
I want to go to college but I can’t think of a way I can go” Ashley said breaking
down and crying harder.

“I’ll call you back” Kayla said quickly.

“Kayla…. Wait…”she got the dial tone. Ashley sighed heavily and put down the
phone. Katharine had stepped out to her hair appointment so Ashley was in the kitchen
making peanut butter and jelly sandwiches for her and Lea when the phone rang. 

“Hello”
“Hey Ash its Kayla”
“Hey why did you hang up so fast?”
“Sorry I just thought of something that could allow you to go to school still”
When Ashley heard that she dropped the knife in her hand and it hit the floor with a
clang. She couldn’t believe this she had thought that she would only be a high
school graduate.
“Ash… you still there?” Kayla said worriedly.
“Ye…Yeah I’m still here so tell me what you thought of” Ashley said
excitedly.
“Well first how much money do you have saved up?” 
“Well I don’t know I think about twenty thousand why?”
“That’s enough to get an apartment right?” 
“Yeah I think so… again why Kayla?”
“Because if me and you get an apartment together then you could afford to go to
school and I could help you out when you need it!!!” 
“Oh my god Kayla you are the best friend a girl could EVER have I love you sooooo
much right now!!” Ashley said tears now streaming down her face.
“Your welcome I am glad to help the best friend I have ever had!!” Kayla said
laughing.
“So all I have to do is fill out this application and get it in quickly so that I
can know as soon as possible.” Ashley said excitedly. 
“Great then once you know tell me and then we can go apartment shopping”
“Alright will do… and thanks again Kayla” 
“You’re welcome… Listen I have to go I have to finish some math homework”
“O.K bye Kayla and thanks again.” Ashley said sincerely then hung up. 

    A few hours later Ashley was telling her mom all about Kayla’s offer. Her mom
gave Ashley her support but also let her know that she was there for her too.
“Yeah I know you’re always going to be here for me.” Ashley said knowingly.
“Honey I’m glad you have found a way to go to college but… Lea still needs her
father you know” Katharine said sincerely. “I know mom but I still can’t get
over what James did to me and her” 
“I know what he did was awful but you don’t need to be friends with him just let
him know that he can be part of Lea’s life O.K?” Katharine said softly. “I…I
guess your right mom it’s all about Lea. And she should have two parents Right?”
 “Exactly” Katharine said with a sigh of relief. “Alright mom I’ll talk to
him tomorrow.” 

   The next morning at school in first period Ashley was looking for James so she
could talk to him about Lea. She couldn’t find him so she gave up and sat down
next to Kayla so she could pass notes more easily. After school on her way to the
bus she spotted James at the park on the swing by himself. Ashley knew what she had
to do so she took a deep breath and walked over to him. “Hey” Ashley said
coldly. 
“Hey” he said timidly. 
“So I needed to tell you something”
“What is that?” James said curiously. 
“That I was wrong for not letting you see Lea” 
“What made you change your mind?” 
“Well I realized that Lea needs to know who her dad is and I can’t keep her from
you forever.” 
“Thank you I appreciate that… maybe I’ll take her to the movies Saturday if
that’s alright with you” 
“Yeah I guess I need a break so yes you can take her to the movies on Saturday but
that doesn’t mean we are cool because I still haven’t forgiven you for what you
did to me and her”
“Yeah I understand but thanks for letting me get to know my daughter.”
“Yeah just don’t be late.” She said shortly

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