Okay, so I have no idea if this is stalking or not, but…

So last year, there was this one guy who I decided to be nice to and started talking
to him (I knew him freshman year, and he didn’t have many friends).  But he soon
became a little too clingy, calling me his “best friend”, even though I spoke to
him for about 2-3 months, and it was pretty obvious he had a crush on me.  

However, he soon began to stalk my Facebook and email quite a bit, reading every
single thing I wrote, including statuses, comments, etc.  He also began posting on my
friends’ walls, asking about me (he also kept messaging my brother, including
“please don’t tell her about this”).  What he was asking my brother about: what
I liked, what I disliked, etc.  And since I was creeped out by that, I blocked him. 
Okay, so I have no idea if this is stalking or not, but…

So last year, there was this one guy who I decided to be nice to and started talking
to him (I knew him freshman year, and he didn’t have many friends).  But he soon
became a little too clingy, calling me his “best friend”, even though I spoke to
him for about 2-3 months, and it was pretty obvious he had a crush on me.  

However, he soon began to stalk my Facebook and email quite a bit, reading every
single thing I wrote, including statuses, comments, etc.  He also began posting on my
friends’ walls, asking about me (he also kept messaging my brother, including
“please don’t tell her about this”).  What he was asking my brother about: what
I liked, what I disliked, etc.  And since I was creeped out by that, I blocked him. 
But on my Formspring and Gmail, I found out that someone by the name of Wordofgod97
created a Wikipedia page about me, posted it, and sent it to quite a few of my
friends.  Although some of the info wasn’t really accurate, parts of it were things
that I had never posted on the Internet (such as my falling asleep in French class),
and it was beginning to scare me.  This person also proceeded to find my middle
school and high school and provide a link to that page in those two places.  And just
today, he/she sent me an email: apparently, that person’s now writing a fucking
STORY about me.

I have a suspicion that Wordofgod97 is the same person I was nice to last year
because, not only do they write in the same style, but they also seem to share
similar interests (the story was in a Star Wars setting, apparently, and he’s kind
of a military/gore obsessed person).  The people he also mentioned in the story (such
as these twins I’m friends with) are also mainly people he met through me.  Only
problem is, I don’t have any clear evidence that it was him.

So my friend told me to compile all the evidence in one file and email it to my
guidance counselor, who said she would look into it; that was almost three months
ago, so I’m pretty sure she just forgot about it.  I’m trying to figure out how
to backtrack him, but I don’t really know what else to do.  Help, please?

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How much longer do I need to keep this mask on?
I'm not exactly the happy, go-lucky person that everyone thinks I am; I've got my own
problems, I'm just better at concealing them.
I've lost track of the number of times I've wanted to cry, to wallow in depression
over being the doormat-like third wheel, to just ditch school so I can run outside
and scream.
I still get nightmares sometimes about IT, about the time I used to be anorexic and
cutting, about the cold white room.
I just want someone to be there for me, someone who won't ditch me and crush my heart
at the same time...someone who could save me from drowning in my emotions.

Alright, if you know anyone with the Gmail username of Word ofgod or the Wikipedia
account of Wordofgod97, can you please tell me?  Because he/she/they took some info
that I've never posted online and put me on Wikipedia, while sending it to people I
don't even know.  Somehow, he/she/they even knew my Formspring, so I'm really scared
right now.

Tell me, please?

I notice you were walking hand and hand,
A fate I never wished to see.
Because I spent so long hoping that
In our case, it would have been meant to be.

I had met him on that autumn day,
You were the one who cheered me on.
So why, then, were you next to him?
That lingering hope was forever gone.

But since she's my sister and my friend,
I run and give her a warm embrace.
I notice you were walking hand and hand,
A fate I never wished to see.
Because I spent so long hoping that
In our case, it would have been meant to be.

I had met him on that autumn day,
You were the one who cheered me on.
So why, then, were you next to him?
That lingering hope was forever gone.

But since she's my sister and my friend,
I run and give her a warm embrace.
I hope the trees will cover up
The rivers of tears running down my face.

Stabbed in the back, relentlessly,
I just want this moment to pass.
Because my cover had then broken,
Revealed to now be just shattered glass.

Staring from those now haunted eyes,
That naive little girl back then had died.
She'd forever fallen into the darkness
And succumbed to her demons inside.

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I wish you’d tell me 
Why you hide all of this away.
A mask on your face with a smile,
But tears are falling like summer rain.
Just take my hand and reach towards the light.
You’ll win this fight.

Chorus:
When we feel the anger rise up inside,
As the screams pierce through the night.
But we’ll be there by your side.
You’ll find your light.
I wish you’d tell me 
Why you hide all of this away.
A mask on your face with a smile,
But tears are falling like summer rain.
Just take my hand and reach towards the light.
You’ll win this fight.

Chorus:
When we feel the anger rise up inside,
As the screams pierce through the night.
But we’ll be there by your side.
You’ll find your light.

Scars mark the arms of the damned and the dying.
Pillows wet with tears from the lost.
People in black stand in front of an angel,
Who holds the soul of those who had crossed.
But just take my hand and reach towards the light.
You’ll win this fight.

Chorus:
When we feel the anger rise up inside,
As the screams pierce through the night.
But we’ll be there by your side.
You’ll find your light.

It’s not just a lie, so I hope you won’t cry.
But think of the ones left behind.
I won’t let you go, and I will even sew
Our lives together, your heart with mine.
So please don’t die.

Chorus: (x2)
When we feel the anger rise up inside,
As the screams pierce through the night.
But we’ll be there by your side.
You’ll find your light.

You’ll find the light.

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