Most recent Public diary entries by enigmatic:
Saturday, 1 November 2014
05:46:01 PM (GMT)
For those of you who didn't know, I'm (most likely) joining the military. So I'm
taking a break from here to kind of get myself together.. I have a lot of problems
right now (because that def wasn't obvious) and so yeah. Anyway, I'll probably be
back sometime.. like whenever.. and you can message me if you want information on how
to contact me outside of here.
I've got training, psychological and physical, to do, since I recently lost someone I
loved who was in the military.. and even though I do work out every single day.
I excel at everything I do (except for social bullshit) and I plan to do the same in
and I literally do not give a single fuck about what anyone thinks, and I recently
lost a few friends because of their "anti-military" bullshit.
Thursday, 30 October 2014
10:27:58 PM (GMT)
no one cares about my existence enough to buy me ramen noodles, tampons, or a light
so i'm hungry and moody and in the cold dark.
SHOOT ME IN THE FUCKIN HEAD MAYBE.
Saturday, 25 October 2014
12:12:29 PM (GMT)
Alright you guys.
I've made my decision.
It may not have been the best one, but we'll find out won't we?
I just hope I can live with it..
Wish me luck *-*
Monday, 20 October 2014
11:01:21 PM (GMT)
it's almost 20:20 pacific
I miss my best friend
not enough Novocaine
in the world
to numb this pain
Monday, 20 October 2014
11:59:35 AM (GMT)
so this morning a cow came to my house. she was hella loud and woke me up /:
anyway, she was following her boyfriend (which is a golden lab; a dog).
they were using the dog down the road (my closest neighbor, about a mile away) to get
the heifer in the trailer to be butchered.
apparently the dog spooked and ran away, all the way down to my house, and the cow
so while I was sleeping, pa and the cows owner were trying to catch the dog and cow
I was woken by a loud MOOOOOOOO by my window. my room literally shook man.
so I got up and screamed, " YOU KNOW I LOVE COWS AND DOGS AND THEY LOVE ME SO WHY
DIDN'T YOU COME GET ME?? "
they didn't want to wake me /: they always fucking wake me lol but the one time it's
Friday, 17 October 2014
12:45:50 AM (GMT)
i think it's cute that people think it's easy to just get over someone
in few days it will be three months
it's felt so much longer
i feel like a bad person because
i've almost forgotten some things i said i never would
lately i've been having a real hard time
with anything and everything
and it's harder because everyone expects me to be okay
but i'll never be able say i'm okay and actually mean it
i'll keep this public because fuck me why not
Last edited: 17 October 2014
Thursday, 2 October 2014
07:10:41 AM (GMT)
im curled up in a ball on the couch whimpering
my neck hurts
my chest hurts
my back hurts
grizzly keeps whining
my head hurts
my tummy hurts
my legs hurt
Last edited: 2 October 2014