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Forgive all the things i've said, I want to take it all back..Category: (general)
Monday, 20 September 2010
10:57:58 PM (GMT)
Oh my dearest, I agree, I did want too much attention… I’ve changed, a lot. I see it. I hear it. And I also HATE it with like… the strongest passion. I understand now where you coming from… Sometimes I even knew what I was doing wrong… I tried to stop it. I really did try. I feel horrible now. =/ I miss the old us, terribly. You weren’t a horrible friend either; I just get jealous thinking you’re with her or whatever… you know? I’m sorry I got that way. I’m sorry for never letting you ever get a word into whatever we’d talk about. I really am. And I just KNEW he would have said something like that to you. I am so sorry he did. Ignore him, because that is not what I said at all! God, that irritates me so much that he would say that to you. No, the day this all happened, we hung out and shit. Like, I just decided to tell him
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*sigh*Category: (general)
Sunday, 19 September 2010
10:57:00 PM (GMT)
You’re not a bad person; I’m not trying to say that. Yeah, I was talking to you, but you’re not the only person I was talking to… Of course though, you have an account on here… she doesn’t. No, I’m not trying to talk shit on you, I’m getting it thrown out there before I do dumb things… this is the only way I can get my anger and depression out. I shouldn’t have said bad things about you, really… I am fucking sorry. I am a baby, I’m immature, I’m a jealous person, and yeah I want attention… maybe some acknowledgment, from you. I am jealous because we hardly would see each other… Yeah, I’d like attention from YOU, not anyone else. I’m not pissed at you and I do not hate you. And I know other people are saying worse… Yeah, I hear it. I hear it everywhere. I’m sorry I got mad at you guys. I’m sorry I have anger issues. I know, I need to get my head straight. I know you
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I'm sorry for it all... =/Category: (general)
Friday, 17 September 2010
01:38:15 PM (GMT)
Filled with rage all inside; it’s locked inside. Hoping you can’t see right through me just like that. I don’t know what happened between us, I don’t know what I did to you, dear… If I’ve changed on you, I’m sorry… You make me wonder so many silly thoughts… One gets to me the most, and maybe I’m over thinking this WAY too much, but you talk about her so horribly to me, calling me your ‘best friend’, and all this and that. But you’re just honestly two-faced. Do you do that with me too? Talk shit on me, calling her your best friend? Yeah, well guess what, since you had that dumb fat bitch fucking message me, POINTLESSLY, I told her about how you talk shit on her. I’m sick and tired of you being a fake. Dude I cared, I thought we were cool. Tell fat ass to leave me the fuck alone and get a life besides message back. You two are ridiculous.
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And you actually don't regret it, really?...Category: (general)
Friday, 16 July 2010
10:47:46 PM (GMT)
Again, you come and keep going. I know you felt something though, say what you want… but I see it in you when you look at me. I must be worth a slight bit if you keep coming back. After we’ve talked about never being what we use to be ever again. You said you didn’t want it anymore… but I know you will always keep coming back. I should put it to an end, but hunny… I can’t. The thing I see in you is great, it’s wonderful. And I want to come back, and what I feel for you… I’m sorry but it won’t ever go away. You know it won’t either. You know me so well, it’s crazy. I hate how much you do… It bothers me because you always know when something isn’t right… Even when I fake everything! That’s a pretty special gift you’ve got. I hate how you are so god damn honest… But I love that you don’t lie to me about anything. I wish I’d meet more people like
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Last edited: 16 July 2010


Thinking of you.Category: (general)
Wednesday, 14 July 2010
10:40:48 PM (GMT)
It’s like a once in awhile thing, you come and go whenever you please. I shouldn’t be involved with it. I shouldn’t put up with it. It’s completely unnatural. I want to get away from you, but I always have the temptation to talk to you… I’m sorry I am so clingy to you, I can’t help it… Though you were never really there for me… Or really anyone for that matter. I understand completely that you are afraid of the whole relationship thing, and now… I know why you are. I’m surprised you actually told me. It’s okay to be afraid, not just relationships either; the future ahead of you too. I know I’m just young, but really, sweetie, it’s alright to be afraid. You’re such a smart kid; you can get thru anything… I feel like I’m onto two stepping stones, one for each foot. I am afraid to lose balance so I’m holding onto you and him both… I can’t let either of you go.
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Last edited: 16 July 2010


Miss, I need you to read.Category: (general)
Monday, 21 June 2010
09:39:56 PM (GMT)
Dear Miss Lady Chick, You know who you are. I am sorry for everything I said in the other two diaries. I’ve just… have been upset, and this was the only way I wanted to even communicate. I’m sorry I didn’t try harder to talk to you… I lied; I can’t just stop being friends. Again, you know how I am when I’m upset; I don’t think before running my mouth. I’m sorry you had to be the one I picked on, basically. I hate myself the most for even doing that to you, dear. I’ve annoyed you, I know… and I’m sorry for that too. Gavin is actually the one that gave me inspiration to write this, he’s a really nice guy… I went to see him today; still thinking about this all and I almost cried… I felt pretty stupid because it was in front of him and I couldn’t get
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Last edited: 16 July 2010


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Monday, 21 June 2010
12:00:56 PM (GMT)
Dear you, I’m not trying to turn this into a mess and I wish you would see that. See, I was right, you do think I’m a whore; stupid, damn straight; selfish, I am… but I wasn’t trying be selfish whatsoever in that actually. I was pointing out the feelings that are suddenly over coming. I re-read everything I wrote several times after I posted that, and then when I woke up… and in a way, I do feel a bit bad for how I worded everything on that. Depression and anger hung on my shoulders, and you know I am than most people… I’d just love to know what I did to you… I swore to myself last night, I was done…completely… But we’ve been friends for so long; I can’t just snap my fingers and not care anymore… Trust me, I’ve
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Last edited: 16 July 2010





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